I didn't want to blog about it. I don't have a choice. I need to rant.
Today, my gf just seemed pissed. My wallet is left with a 3-digit figure. And by 01 June, it will be 2 digits. No, the bulk of the money didn't go to myself... I willingly invested my wealth in someone else.That someone made me irrational, amidst the sweet memories. Its time to wake up although its too late. But at least better than continuing in my dreamland...
She wanted to watch 2 plays with me - 'The Lion King' and 'Jump!'. I really wasn't that keen in the Arts, what more these 2 plays. While I appreciated the intent of fulfilling her dream to watch a play with her bf, the rational me said no. I checked the prices for the 2 shows. I asked myself a fundamental question: why should I? I mean, its not that I changed from the doting (yes, I dare say so) bf to the selfish, stingy and lazy person. But as a man and future husband-to-be, I must make that hard decision to say no. I anticipated the kind of response I will get and got it. I am thinking of saving up for our future, trying to spend on te necessary, things that will give long-term benefits instead of these instant gratifications. The only instant gratifications I accept and like firstly a taboo topic to start and secondly a variable highly dependent on her mood. I have swallowed that fact nontheless. When she called and talked, in my mind, her words and tone constantly robbed me of my self-control. But I am thankful I didn't lose it.
I merely wanted to control it, and not let it escalate.
I can take it. The harsh tone and sharp words. No problem. But now I know why a leopard never changes its spots - I have no choice but to return to my original self and start bottling things up. Since her last paper is tomorrow. I have to endure it and not let it affect her.
Then, she asked me to treat someone whom we both know but I wasn't close with, to coffee. Her personal request wasn't something I am prepared for. While I want to do something for her, can she not understand that not everyone is or must be like her? I am not that kind party animal, to start talking to others unless I know them very well or if they are friendly to me. I can try, but at least be understanding and slowly convince me. I said yes anyway. But she detected my unwillingness. That was how the next issue started. The scolding/nagging started. I find it unreasonable to be deprived a good chance to explain. Then again, will she accept? The least she can do is to convince me in a NICER tone. I mentioned the best way to coax me is to whine and be (or act) cute. She knows it because I told her I have a weak spot to girls who tug my sleeves with those big round teary eyes and its definitely within her abilities to do so. If she doesn't allow me to change her to what I want her to be, I find it very miserable to be the one to ALWAYS give in and change just for her. I lost myself. I asked myself, what am I to her? Who am I? I already don't recognise the me I was, before I met her. I teared... I feel so sad for myself. No one will pity me.
Maybe she is just stressed and tired.
While I recognise that I am at fault too because I HAVE A CHOICE to communicate with her but didn't, I really need a breather for myself from the stress building up from work and rs issues. I need to talk to someone. I thought I found one since late 2009. Well, the irony seems to be no matter what I do or say, her wall is still up and I can never seem to scale it. I don't want to give up but I need some encouragement. Someone who can emphatize with me.
I have a lot a lot a lot more to say. But I cannot even begin.
I am sad, but I have no choice but to always put up a strong front. Because that is the ideal man she wants.
I am tired, emotionally, but I have to lie to her, telling her I am all right just so that she can at least put her mind at rest.
I love her. But I wonder if she really knew what I am going through. The dilemma I faced. The cold in my heart.
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
Friday, March 04, 2011
Long time no post...
I know, this blog is dead for some... 6~7 months?
Lets just say, A LOT happened and I was too lazy to type. Journalling is impt to me no doubt., but sometimes I just procrastinate too much. I realised that my posts are either damn emo, or happy. Otherwise, its plain boring. But who cares right?
Another 11 days and it will be our 14th month together. (Yes, we are still tgt! :) ) But really, I don't know how to describe our 1 year+ of relationship in a simple post. Let's just say, things have stabilized amidst the uncertainty. I know, oxymoron.
I really don't know whether I will continue blogging, but as of now, probably. Its not going to be regular, so don't bother camping here.
Let's see how things turn out from now...
Lets just say, A LOT happened and I was too lazy to type. Journalling is impt to me no doubt., but sometimes I just procrastinate too much. I realised that my posts are either damn emo, or happy. Otherwise, its plain boring. But who cares right?
Another 11 days and it will be our 14th month together. (Yes, we are still tgt! :) ) But really, I don't know how to describe our 1 year+ of relationship in a simple post. Let's just say, things have stabilized amidst the uncertainty. I know, oxymoron.
I really don't know whether I will continue blogging, but as of now, probably. Its not going to be regular, so don't bother camping here.
Let's see how things turn out from now...
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Last day of August
What's so special about today? Well, its the last day of August!
Ok, its actually the day we are going to Genting! We have been looking forward to it for so many months. Its been a long but worthwhile wait. In fact, the journey was sweeter than anything else. The anticipation, the time spent together, planning, etc. We got much closer despite the occasional frictions along the way. I must say, we are on our way to help lower 'the barrier'. I know its not going to be easy, but I am always willing to wait.
We will be taking the bus tonight, with her mum, bro and sis. :) Haha. Mini-honeymoon with her family. Coming back on Friday night. I shall bask in the cool weather, thrill rides, indoor activities, food, etc. Most important, its OUR time. No burdens to think of, no worries. Just the two of us.
So far, I have experienced a lot. With our 8th month coming up, I have been brought to the extremes and questioned myself - Why? I know this sounds very abstract for those reading this, but let me rant ok? Many times, I hid myself up to think, and they just start to well up. I cannot help it; but more importantly, you didn't want to witness it. I had no choice but to bury it deep in me, so that no one ends up like me. Sometimes, all I want is a listening ear, which I cannot seem to get hold of. I want to rant as much too, but no one is there. So I have to resort to typing away or simply sleeping it away, hopefully it will fade away...
But it was you, again, who brought me back to my senses and gave me the strength to go on. It was a subconscious effort and I am appreciating the beauty in you day by day. That is what is keeping us bonded - you.
I may have 'invested' more than I should or can afford to, but that's me - foolish, impulsive, but generous once you gain my trust. That is the way I deal with people. The more sincere and generous you are to me, The more I will return you the favour; twofold, tenfold. Because you deserve it. :)
Anyway, I am just looking forward to it. Regardless what happens, I just want this trip to be our milestone. I want us to be happier and closer than ever before. That is the main objective.
School has started too. Its the first week, and the second day today. I attended the first lecture yesterday and it was interesting. Poor Jonathan got PS-ed by almost everyone, and he was the only one in uniform. I told him about my concerns which was about the image we have to uphold, and its not easy.
Currently, I am suffering from plantar warts. Luckily, I went ot see the doc with my bro and mum last Sunday. The doctor diagnosed it, and said it wasn't the foot corn I so confidently speculated. Unlike foot corn, which is the thickening of the skin due to pressure, plantar warts is a form of viral infection. -_-' The current treatment is via chemical means - to apply acid over the affected skin and peel away the whitish, hardened dead skin layer and repeat the procedure for a month. If it doesn't work, then it will be either burnt away via laser or frozen by liquid nitrogen. Cold & hot treatment uh? -_-"
And as I end this note off, I shall wish everyone a good start to school and good health! Don't end up like me, take my health for granted and suffer. :(
Ok, its actually the day we are going to Genting! We have been looking forward to it for so many months. Its been a long but worthwhile wait. In fact, the journey was sweeter than anything else. The anticipation, the time spent together, planning, etc. We got much closer despite the occasional frictions along the way. I must say, we are on our way to help lower 'the barrier'. I know its not going to be easy, but I am always willing to wait.
We will be taking the bus tonight, with her mum, bro and sis. :) Haha. Mini-honeymoon with her family. Coming back on Friday night. I shall bask in the cool weather, thrill rides, indoor activities, food, etc. Most important, its OUR time. No burdens to think of, no worries. Just the two of us.
So far, I have experienced a lot. With our 8th month coming up, I have been brought to the extremes and questioned myself - Why? I know this sounds very abstract for those reading this, but let me rant ok? Many times, I hid myself up to think, and they just start to well up. I cannot help it; but more importantly, you didn't want to witness it. I had no choice but to bury it deep in me, so that no one ends up like me. Sometimes, all I want is a listening ear, which I cannot seem to get hold of. I want to rant as much too, but no one is there. So I have to resort to typing away or simply sleeping it away, hopefully it will fade away...
But it was you, again, who brought me back to my senses and gave me the strength to go on. It was a subconscious effort and I am appreciating the beauty in you day by day. That is what is keeping us bonded - you.
I may have 'invested' more than I should or can afford to, but that's me - foolish, impulsive, but generous once you gain my trust. That is the way I deal with people. The more sincere and generous you are to me, The more I will return you the favour; twofold, tenfold. Because you deserve it. :)
Anyway, I am just looking forward to it. Regardless what happens, I just want this trip to be our milestone. I want us to be happier and closer than ever before. That is the main objective.
School has started too. Its the first week, and the second day today. I attended the first lecture yesterday and it was interesting. Poor Jonathan got PS-ed by almost everyone, and he was the only one in uniform. I told him about my concerns which was about the image we have to uphold, and its not easy.
Currently, I am suffering from plantar warts. Luckily, I went ot see the doc with my bro and mum last Sunday. The doctor diagnosed it, and said it wasn't the foot corn I so confidently speculated. Unlike foot corn, which is the thickening of the skin due to pressure, plantar warts is a form of viral infection. -_-' The current treatment is via chemical means - to apply acid over the affected skin and peel away the whitish, hardened dead skin layer and repeat the procedure for a month. If it doesn't work, then it will be either burnt away via laser or frozen by liquid nitrogen. Cold & hot treatment uh? -_-"
And as I end this note off, I shall wish everyone a good start to school and good health! Don't end up like me, take my health for granted and suffer. :(
Monday, August 09, 2010
Happy 45th Birthday Singapore!
Today is a significant day for all of us, Singaporeans.
As we watch in awe at the wonderful fireworks, I wonder how many of us actually know the meaning of 9th August. I wonder how many of us actually thought it was a 'show'. I have been involved in NDP 3 times - 2001 as a mass display participant, 2008 as a Reserve Colours Ensign and in 2009, as a Colours Ensign. I have seen the background work, the amount of sweat put in by our fellow Singaporeans, from all walks of life. I know the meaning of National Day Parade.
As I watched the Parade and Show, memories flash back. As the National Anthem is plaed or the State flag fly past, my hair stood. I remember how proud I was donning my ceremonial uniform and holding my unit's Colour, the sense of pride in me overwhelmed my senses. I nearly teared when I heard Kit Chan singing Home once again. Yes, this is my Singapore, my home.
While some might think I have been brain-washed or I am brainwashing you, let's just say you have the option to read on or leave this page.
So anyway, what does NDP mean to me? I think its a form of celebration, to remember what our forefathers have done to give us the peaceful and high standards of living we are enjoying. Like what the theme song this year mentioned: "Sometimes the best things are taken for granted..." Indeed, I am sure majority of us, including myself have taken the life we have here for granted. Its not wrong, its just human nature. We always think the grass is greener on the other side. But are you sure its really that good? Even if it is, to put it bluntly, you are being ungrateful and realisitic.
Just like our parents. The way you treat your nation is how you treat your parents.
Without them, are you able to even complain this and that? Are you able to breathe normally, have your meals or enjoy the material comforts they provide for you? Will you have a home?
I am reflecting on all these, to remind myself, that I must treasure whats important and close to me. Because I never want to regret what I failed to cherish.
Live our Dreams, Fly our Flag. Proudly.
Happy National Day, my fellow Singaporeans. :)
As we watch in awe at the wonderful fireworks, I wonder how many of us actually know the meaning of 9th August. I wonder how many of us actually thought it was a 'show'. I have been involved in NDP 3 times - 2001 as a mass display participant, 2008 as a Reserve Colours Ensign and in 2009, as a Colours Ensign. I have seen the background work, the amount of sweat put in by our fellow Singaporeans, from all walks of life. I know the meaning of National Day Parade.
As I watched the Parade and Show, memories flash back. As the National Anthem is plaed or the State flag fly past, my hair stood. I remember how proud I was donning my ceremonial uniform and holding my unit's Colour, the sense of pride in me overwhelmed my senses. I nearly teared when I heard Kit Chan singing Home once again. Yes, this is my Singapore, my home.
While some might think I have been brain-washed or I am brainwashing you, let's just say you have the option to read on or leave this page.
So anyway, what does NDP mean to me? I think its a form of celebration, to remember what our forefathers have done to give us the peaceful and high standards of living we are enjoying. Like what the theme song this year mentioned: "Sometimes the best things are taken for granted..." Indeed, I am sure majority of us, including myself have taken the life we have here for granted. Its not wrong, its just human nature. We always think the grass is greener on the other side. But are you sure its really that good? Even if it is, to put it bluntly, you are being ungrateful and realisitic.
Just like our parents. The way you treat your nation is how you treat your parents.
Without them, are you able to even complain this and that? Are you able to breathe normally, have your meals or enjoy the material comforts they provide for you? Will you have a home?
I am reflecting on all these, to remind myself, that I must treasure whats important and close to me. Because I never want to regret what I failed to cherish.
Live our Dreams, Fly our Flag. Proudly.
Happy National Day, my fellow Singaporeans. :)
Sunday, August 01, 2010
Back to Work
Its really tedious to recollect some of my past memories to update about what's going on for the past 2 months. I am going to start blogging about these few days first.
Today is a lazy day. Rain outside, and I didn't step out of home. Just wanna savour the last moments of my freedom and rest while I can. Tmr, I will be starting work again. And this week, I will be organising a team-building session. Hope all turns out fine this thursday.
The past 12 weeks of studying in uniform was quite an experience for me. I think its the best 'vacation' I ever had. Study, break, study, break, study break, study exam, exam, exam break, rest and the cycle repeats. Met new friends and forged new bonds.
I did a lot of reflection and self-mastery and realised a lot about myself. Learnt many new concepts which I believe will help in my career too. I just want to be the best I can and hope to achieve what I set out to do.
If I can summarise my learnings, it would be: Perception and Choice.
Upcoming events: NDP, YOG, Holidays, AHM!
Well, whats left ahead of me is 4 weeks of work before school reopens. Looking forward to HOLIDAYS!!!!! :)
2 more weeks to our 7th! :)
Today is a lazy day. Rain outside, and I didn't step out of home. Just wanna savour the last moments of my freedom and rest while I can. Tmr, I will be starting work again. And this week, I will be organising a team-building session. Hope all turns out fine this thursday.
The past 12 weeks of studying in uniform was quite an experience for me. I think its the best 'vacation' I ever had. Study, break, study, break, study break, study exam, exam, exam break, rest and the cycle repeats. Met new friends and forged new bonds.
I did a lot of reflection and self-mastery and realised a lot about myself. Learnt many new concepts which I believe will help in my career too. I just want to be the best I can and hope to achieve what I set out to do.
If I can summarise my learnings, it would be: Perception and Choice.
Upcoming events: NDP, YOG, Holidays, AHM!
Well, whats left ahead of me is 4 weeks of work before school reopens. Looking forward to HOLIDAYS!!!!! :)
2 more weeks to our 7th! :)
Monday, July 12, 2010
Happy Weeks (Part 1)
I am lazy. That's the reason why I have been MIA. I am probably going semi-active till further notice.
Decided to update this blog about some of the important events that happened these weeks.
Highlights since 060610:
080610 Mum's birthday celebration @ Somerset 313
We got a little cheated by the restaurant staff. Nvm... Took many photos, and my relatives were there. My lil nephew - Edawn, my cousins and auntie came too and we took many many photos. It was my first time holding a kid's hands while shopping outside and taking care of him. Looking at him, I now know how impish I was when I was younger...
120610
Didn't get to meet her as its NDP rehearsal, and she won't be back early. Went to Parkway Parade Challenger to look for the laptop casing that she wanted (when we were looking for it at Tampines Mall Challenger) but couldn't find. Dropped by her house at night to give her the dumplings my parents made for her. She wasn't around, so I passed it to her mother instead. Hope she liked them. She lost her voice.... :(
130610 Outing with her to IKEA Tampines
First thing to do - Solve her tutee's maths question via email. Haha. I must say the kids these days are really poor thing... Doing more and more challenging problems at a younger age. So anyway, we met at Tanjong Katong Complex first for her to get her contact lens, but its closed. Then took train to Tampines MRT station and boarded the shuttle bus there. On the bus, something ' interesting' happened, when she told the couple at the back of the bus off for not moving in, in order to let more people board the bus. Haha. It was the first time I witnessed her public-self. :P
Walked around IKEA and along the way, I was kind of hurt by the things she said/did. Not going to say much since its over and I am no longer bogged down by it :) Had early dinner at the food centre within IKEA. Had a hard time dissecting the chicken wings with fork and knife. Haha. Learnt something new, at least.
Walked around Tampines Mall, One and Centur Square before heading home...
150610 Our 5 Months Anniversary
Well, we didn't celebrate given our busy schedule, and it wasn't really our normal practice to celebrate monthly anniversaries, but at least we made a point to remember it and use it as a simple milestone to our journey. Sent her a long SMS to tell her everything I needed. :)
160610 SF0003 Examinations
Phew, The first paper is finally over!!! Its kinda intersting going back to NTU and seeing how it has turned into 'Nanyang Prison'. I can understand if they are setting up a fence on the outer perimeteres, but the inside too?! So now there's inner and outer cordon. Now I know why Uni students can complain so much about this and that. This is how education has brought us to this point - we start observing and making a big fuss out of everything we don't understand.
Anyway, the paper was manaegable. I dare say I can pass, but I wonder how well will I do eventually. Kinda interesting to observe that half the examination hall was filled with uni students and the other half in No. 3 or No. 4 uniforms. Heh.
By the time the paper was over, I was seriously brain-drained. Never have I felt any more tired mentally than today. Perhaps its due to the lack of sleep as well... And the best part - I haven't prepare for the paper the next day... ARGH!!!!
170610 SF0001 Examinations
At last! Its over!!! After cramping all the information The paper today was crazily outrageous. As I type this entry, I barely remember what I learnt. I mean, its not that its not beneficial, but I think I can hardly relate to what was taught at the present moment. Oh well, its a pilot project, and who knows, maybe one day I might just find it useful. Super drained now... Going to play for the next few days before 'school' starts again.
I shall continue on the next entry... Till then!
Decided to update this blog about some of the important events that happened these weeks.
Highlights since 060610:
080610 Mum's birthday celebration @ Somerset 313
We got a little cheated by the restaurant staff. Nvm... Took many photos, and my relatives were there. My lil nephew - Edawn, my cousins and auntie came too and we took many many photos. It was my first time holding a kid's hands while shopping outside and taking care of him. Looking at him, I now know how impish I was when I was younger...
120610
Didn't get to meet her as its NDP rehearsal, and she won't be back early. Went to Parkway Parade Challenger to look for the laptop casing that she wanted (when we were looking for it at Tampines Mall Challenger) but couldn't find. Dropped by her house at night to give her the dumplings my parents made for her. She wasn't around, so I passed it to her mother instead. Hope she liked them. She lost her voice.... :(
130610 Outing with her to IKEA Tampines
First thing to do - Solve her tutee's maths question via email. Haha. I must say the kids these days are really poor thing... Doing more and more challenging problems at a younger age. So anyway, we met at Tanjong Katong Complex first for her to get her contact lens, but its closed. Then took train to Tampines MRT station and boarded the shuttle bus there. On the bus, something ' interesting' happened, when she told the couple at the back of the bus off for not moving in, in order to let more people board the bus. Haha. It was the first time I witnessed her public-self. :P
Walked around IKEA and along the way, I was kind of hurt by the things she said/did. Not going to say much since its over and I am no longer bogged down by it :) Had early dinner at the food centre within IKEA. Had a hard time dissecting the chicken wings with fork and knife. Haha. Learnt something new, at least.
Walked around Tampines Mall, One and Centur Square before heading home...
150610 Our 5 Months Anniversary
Well, we didn't celebrate given our busy schedule, and it wasn't really our normal practice to celebrate monthly anniversaries, but at least we made a point to remember it and use it as a simple milestone to our journey. Sent her a long SMS to tell her everything I needed. :)
160610 SF0003 Examinations
Phew, The first paper is finally over!!! Its kinda intersting going back to NTU and seeing how it has turned into 'Nanyang Prison'. I can understand if they are setting up a fence on the outer perimeteres, but the inside too?! So now there's inner and outer cordon. Now I know why Uni students can complain so much about this and that. This is how education has brought us to this point - we start observing and making a big fuss out of everything we don't understand.
Anyway, the paper was manaegable. I dare say I can pass, but I wonder how well will I do eventually. Kinda interesting to observe that half the examination hall was filled with uni students and the other half in No. 3 or No. 4 uniforms. Heh.
By the time the paper was over, I was seriously brain-drained. Never have I felt any more tired mentally than today. Perhaps its due to the lack of sleep as well... And the best part - I haven't prepare for the paper the next day... ARGH!!!!
170610 SF0001 Examinations
At last! Its over!!! After cramping all the information The paper today was crazily outrageous. As I type this entry, I barely remember what I learnt. I mean, its not that its not beneficial, but I think I can hardly relate to what was taught at the present moment. Oh well, its a pilot project, and who knows, maybe one day I might just find it useful. Super drained now... Going to play for the next few days before 'school' starts again.
I shall continue on the next entry... Till then!
Sunday, June 06, 2010
Nearly a Hat Trick
This entry serves to back-log last weekend.
I nearly scored a hat-trick last weekend. We dated on Thursday, Saturday and Sunday. I could have been 4 consecutive dates, but we decided to have a break in between on Friday.
Thursday
We met up and it was a long time since we went out. The previous weekend, we didn't go out on a date, it was just a meet-up. Hence, we were glad to see each other since the long interval.
Went out for Korean Dinner at Suntec City after meeting at City Hall MRT. Not too bad, and it was my first time having Korean. Not too bad. 2 dishes were more than enough for the two of us to share. Then we went shopping at Toys 'R' Us nearby and around Suntec and given her condition relapse, I had to send her home soonafter. After all, we were going to meet soon again.
Saturday
Movie day! Went to Vivo-City in the afternoon to watch Sex & the City 2. She just came over after her CCA in school. The film was rated M18 - Matured Themes. Not too bad a film and it really makes me ponder about certain issues. I guess that's what the city-dwellers face, not just in the western part of the world.
Then, we were thinknig of where to have our dinner. Since we were not too hungry, we decided to tour around Vivo and took several photos. The sceneries were good, especially with the Sentosa IR as the background. However, things turned a little unpleasant in between. She claimed that I wasn't smiling genuinely when I dare say I was. Well, it all started out from something quite small, but it triggered a big issue... I am not going to dwell on it as we have moved on since.
After walking around, we decided to head to PS for Xin Wang. When we arrived, we were disappointed to no good seats left. So we changed plans and head off to Changi Airport. Haha. She was kinda surprised at how readily I agreed. Haha. Took the train, and toured around before settling at the Xin Wang there. Apparently. there was a long queue too, but not wanting to look for antoher place, we waited for our turn for nearly half-an-hour and chatted as we wait. Dinner was simple but good. Had a rather sumptous meal of curry chicken noodles and some dim sum (late at night). Indeed what mattered most is who you are dining with, which will make the most difference.
We left afterwhich and I sent her home. We are meeting the following day!
Sunday!
Ok, it was a just a simple dinner and drama-watching at my side. But it was the company that counts. Papa and Mama were delighted to see her again. :) Well, it was 4.5, but it wasn't anyone's fault. I kept insisting and I think I shouldn't have. Only made things worst. Sigh. I regretted.
On the way back, I realised how difficult it was to hold back the tears. There was just too much on my mind and I needed time alnoe to think through. I was upset, but I didn't want that to infect her. So I chose to bottle up again...
Fortunately, we managed to resolve it over the phone via SMS and calls and things got a lot better thereafter. :)
Well, that sums up the date last week. Ups and Downs, but at least I could see her again.
I nearly scored a hat-trick last weekend. We dated on Thursday, Saturday and Sunday. I could have been 4 consecutive dates, but we decided to have a break in between on Friday.
Thursday
We met up and it was a long time since we went out. The previous weekend, we didn't go out on a date, it was just a meet-up. Hence, we were glad to see each other since the long interval.
Went out for Korean Dinner at Suntec City after meeting at City Hall MRT. Not too bad, and it was my first time having Korean. Not too bad. 2 dishes were more than enough for the two of us to share. Then we went shopping at Toys 'R' Us nearby and around Suntec and given her condition relapse, I had to send her home soonafter. After all, we were going to meet soon again.
Saturday
Movie day! Went to Vivo-City in the afternoon to watch Sex & the City 2. She just came over after her CCA in school. The film was rated M18 - Matured Themes. Not too bad a film and it really makes me ponder about certain issues. I guess that's what the city-dwellers face, not just in the western part of the world.
Then, we were thinknig of where to have our dinner. Since we were not too hungry, we decided to tour around Vivo and took several photos. The sceneries were good, especially with the Sentosa IR as the background. However, things turned a little unpleasant in between. She claimed that I wasn't smiling genuinely when I dare say I was. Well, it all started out from something quite small, but it triggered a big issue... I am not going to dwell on it as we have moved on since.
After walking around, we decided to head to PS for Xin Wang. When we arrived, we were disappointed to no good seats left. So we changed plans and head off to Changi Airport. Haha. She was kinda surprised at how readily I agreed. Haha. Took the train, and toured around before settling at the Xin Wang there. Apparently. there was a long queue too, but not wanting to look for antoher place, we waited for our turn for nearly half-an-hour and chatted as we wait. Dinner was simple but good. Had a rather sumptous meal of curry chicken noodles and some dim sum (late at night). Indeed what mattered most is who you are dining with, which will make the most difference.
We left afterwhich and I sent her home. We are meeting the following day!
Sunday!
Ok, it was a just a simple dinner and drama-watching at my side. But it was the company that counts. Papa and Mama were delighted to see her again. :) Well, it was 4.5, but it wasn't anyone's fault. I kept insisting and I think I shouldn't have. Only made things worst. Sigh. I regretted.
On the way back, I realised how difficult it was to hold back the tears. There was just too much on my mind and I needed time alnoe to think through. I was upset, but I didn't want that to infect her. So I chose to bottle up again...
Fortunately, we managed to resolve it over the phone via SMS and calls and things got a lot better thereafter. :)
Well, that sums up the date last week. Ups and Downs, but at least I could see her again.
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
THERAPIES!!!
I LOVE THERAPIES!!!! :):):)
Woohoo! Ok, just had a great one. No, its not that typical therapy. I am talking about something else. Something that is... unique. :)
Ok, my cheeks are stiff from all the smiling and laughter. This is what I want. Something simple yet never fails to boost my morale and give me the reason to believe in all the hard work I put in. And that is all I needed.
Its really amazing when/that "Life's Simple Pleasures Came From You". Indeed. I will cherish it.
Woohoo! Ok, just had a great one. No, its not that typical therapy. I am talking about something else. Something that is... unique. :)
Ok, my cheeks are stiff from all the smiling and laughter. This is what I want. Something simple yet never fails to boost my morale and give me the reason to believe in all the hard work I put in. And that is all I needed.
Its really amazing when/that "Life's Simple Pleasures Came From You". Indeed. I will cherish it.
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Busy
Busy. Indeed, since the last time I blogged, it has been nothing but rest.
Its already the second of my 'studies' and I must say, time isn't on my side. Sigh. Still procrastinating. The modules are somewhat relevant to my career but one of them seemed rater abstract. I am kinda struggling to stay abreast with the lectures and amount of readings. There goes my weekend.
I am sort of giving up on Mafia Wars on Facebook. Just playing occasionally these days. I guessed I reached the point of boredom, knowing that I have overcame the gears and obstacles in the game.
Relationship-wise, lots of events both minor and major happened. It was not a smooth journey and the 'honeymoon' era seemed to have slwoly faded. Yet, I am not disheartened nor do I regret, for it is only expected that the sweet times will only last so long, and that in fact is the true start, to test the strength of the relationship. I am confident, despite the pain, cold and hurt incurred by me. I must emphasize: I am not being emo here. Rather, I am reflecting on the past. What I say, the tone I used, may drop a hint of sadness, but I am definitely able to pick myself up. I am merely putting those memories to words, so I can archive and reflect upon myself after some time.
I have never been more serious in any relationship. I am sure, with time, and some compromise, plus plenty of trust and communication, we will be putting on the rings for each other. :)
I have also somewhat concluded on our 'weaknesses'. I am sure she knew whats one thing that 'annoy' her and as for her, well I shall not comment here. But I find the issues nothing that serious. It may even turn out to be something pleasant eventually.
No matter what I say or feel, as long as you don't let go, I will always be there. :)
Its already the second of my 'studies' and I must say, time isn't on my side. Sigh. Still procrastinating. The modules are somewhat relevant to my career but one of them seemed rater abstract. I am kinda struggling to stay abreast with the lectures and amount of readings. There goes my weekend.
I am sort of giving up on Mafia Wars on Facebook. Just playing occasionally these days. I guessed I reached the point of boredom, knowing that I have overcame the gears and obstacles in the game.
Relationship-wise, lots of events both minor and major happened. It was not a smooth journey and the 'honeymoon' era seemed to have slwoly faded. Yet, I am not disheartened nor do I regret, for it is only expected that the sweet times will only last so long, and that in fact is the true start, to test the strength of the relationship. I am confident, despite the pain, cold and hurt incurred by me. I must emphasize: I am not being emo here. Rather, I am reflecting on the past. What I say, the tone I used, may drop a hint of sadness, but I am definitely able to pick myself up. I am merely putting those memories to words, so I can archive and reflect upon myself after some time.
I have never been more serious in any relationship. I am sure, with time, and some compromise, plus plenty of trust and communication, we will be putting on the rings for each other. :)
I have also somewhat concluded on our 'weaknesses'. I am sure she knew whats one thing that 'annoy' her and as for her, well I shall not comment here. But I find the issues nothing that serious. It may even turn out to be something pleasant eventually.
No matter what I say or feel, as long as you don't let go, I will always be there. :)
Saturday, May 08, 2010
Mother's Day in advance!
Had a fulfilling day. And another milestone to our journey.
Went out for dental appointment in the afternoon in the pouring rain. The colour combination for the next 4 weeks - Yellow and Purple. As usual, it was chosen by her, and the reason for this comib? We were on an SBS Transit bus and she got the idea from the bus-pole, which was purple and the bell was yellow. :)
So afterwhich, I went back and got a haircut from the usual barber uncle. Not too bad, at least this time the hairstyle was what I wanted, not too thin and short, just nice.
So after showering, I was pondering if I should head off for the library to read my books. Somehow the rain made me felt lazy and I didn't want to spend the extra money on transportation or food, so I gave it a miss. What a blessing in disguise, as she called me out since her mum invited me for dinner together to celebrate Mother's day in advance. :) In fact I missed 2 phone calls, until I received the message later. But thankfully, I still got the info in time and quickly changed my attire and head off to Marina Square Yuki Yaki.
I got the table and shortly after, she and her mum and sis arrived. It was a dinner full of laughter and I got teased many times for not holding the chopsticks properly. Oh well, its a bad habit and I have to undergo lessons from her already. Got told off many times either for doing it wrongly or not doing something correctly. Heh. Well, I am used to it, and must adapt. Thanks to her mum for kept telling her off in return. Haha. And my poor dentist became the target board for her to vent her frustration. She insisted her sis foot the bill, so I had no choice. We went shopping for my sneakers while her mum and sis went downstairs to to shop for clothes. We didn't buy any sneakers in the end as there isn't the right size for the shoes she picked. Plus, the service isn't that good either.
Went down to walk around then we decided to head to Suntec City's Haagen Dazs to have our desserts. I decided to treat them, since her sis forked out for dinner already. Not too bad, but definitely very sinful. It was also my gift for her mother since we were celebrating Mother's Day. :)
So we headed back home via EW line and it was also the first time I stepped into her house. At last. Her dad left a very good impression, at least better than I thought/ was told. Well, I will remember this day indeed. I didn't stay long, for it was rather late, and she bade me goodbye.
Looks like we have advanced further. I will continue to work hard. :)
Went out for dental appointment in the afternoon in the pouring rain. The colour combination for the next 4 weeks - Yellow and Purple. As usual, it was chosen by her, and the reason for this comib? We were on an SBS Transit bus and she got the idea from the bus-pole, which was purple and the bell was yellow. :)
So afterwhich, I went back and got a haircut from the usual barber uncle. Not too bad, at least this time the hairstyle was what I wanted, not too thin and short, just nice.
So after showering, I was pondering if I should head off for the library to read my books. Somehow the rain made me felt lazy and I didn't want to spend the extra money on transportation or food, so I gave it a miss. What a blessing in disguise, as she called me out since her mum invited me for dinner together to celebrate Mother's day in advance. :) In fact I missed 2 phone calls, until I received the message later. But thankfully, I still got the info in time and quickly changed my attire and head off to Marina Square Yuki Yaki.
I got the table and shortly after, she and her mum and sis arrived. It was a dinner full of laughter and I got teased many times for not holding the chopsticks properly. Oh well, its a bad habit and I have to undergo lessons from her already. Got told off many times either for doing it wrongly or not doing something correctly. Heh. Well, I am used to it, and must adapt. Thanks to her mum for kept telling her off in return. Haha. And my poor dentist became the target board for her to vent her frustration. She insisted her sis foot the bill, so I had no choice. We went shopping for my sneakers while her mum and sis went downstairs to to shop for clothes. We didn't buy any sneakers in the end as there isn't the right size for the shoes she picked. Plus, the service isn't that good either.
Went down to walk around then we decided to head to Suntec City's Haagen Dazs to have our desserts. I decided to treat them, since her sis forked out for dinner already. Not too bad, but definitely very sinful. It was also my gift for her mother since we were celebrating Mother's Day. :)
So we headed back home via EW line and it was also the first time I stepped into her house. At last. Her dad left a very good impression, at least better than I thought/ was told. Well, I will remember this day indeed. I didn't stay long, for it was rather late, and she bade me goodbye.
Looks like we have advanced further. I will continue to work hard. :)
Thursday, May 06, 2010
End of Exams.
Well, technically, it ended on Tuesday.
The worst of the semester may be over, but somehow, I don't feel overjoyed. Yes, the burden is off, no need to take the train every other day, and I don't need to worry about waking up early and eating the same canteen food. But I just don't know why its just like any other day. Maybe I play too much. Maybe I expected it. Maybe I am worried for results. Maybe I know that these 4 months or so aren't exactly a holiday period.
Yesterday, as I walked back to the bus stop, I couldn't help but look down and sigh. It was a really slow walk, and suddenly my eyes just start to well up again. I didn't turn back, for I didn't want to be disappointed. I am not trying to be emo. Its just me who likes to keep thinking. I just blame myself whenever things go wrong. I don't ask for much, but when I do, I really need it. A simple thing, a simple gesture. Someone once sang this to me: "If you miss the train I am on, you will know that I am gone...." That time, the lyrics went in my head and came out the other side. Now I truly experienced what it meant and the pain behind.
When I don't say, it doesn't mean I am fine.
No, its not anyone's fault. It may contradict with what I say, but really, I cannot blame others. I learnt my lesson. And I learnt it the hard way. Even if I think its their fault, who am I to point fingers? It doesn't solve the problem and I end up hurting others.
At the bus-stop, I made a wish. I wished that after a night's sleep, I will forget about any unhappiness. It usually works. I think.
And now, here I am typing away. My mind just wants to shut itself down again. It has been my natural defence mechanism against any form of unhappiness. Just press the off button and things won't be as bad. Ignorance is indeed bliss.
Tonight, dad and mum are going for a short holiday again. And I will be lonely again. Yes, my brother(s) will be at home, but what I wanted....
Am I thinking too much? If I am, please come to me and give me a slap to wake me up. Sometimes I ponder, what do I really want? Time? Hug? Laughter? Yes, I need them all and more.
I need recognition.
The worst of the semester may be over, but somehow, I don't feel overjoyed. Yes, the burden is off, no need to take the train every other day, and I don't need to worry about waking up early and eating the same canteen food. But I just don't know why its just like any other day. Maybe I play too much. Maybe I expected it. Maybe I am worried for results. Maybe I know that these 4 months or so aren't exactly a holiday period.
Yesterday, as I walked back to the bus stop, I couldn't help but look down and sigh. It was a really slow walk, and suddenly my eyes just start to well up again. I didn't turn back, for I didn't want to be disappointed. I am not trying to be emo. Its just me who likes to keep thinking. I just blame myself whenever things go wrong. I don't ask for much, but when I do, I really need it. A simple thing, a simple gesture. Someone once sang this to me: "If you miss the train I am on, you will know that I am gone...." That time, the lyrics went in my head and came out the other side. Now I truly experienced what it meant and the pain behind.
When I don't say, it doesn't mean I am fine.
No, its not anyone's fault. It may contradict with what I say, but really, I cannot blame others. I learnt my lesson. And I learnt it the hard way. Even if I think its their fault, who am I to point fingers? It doesn't solve the problem and I end up hurting others.
At the bus-stop, I made a wish. I wished that after a night's sleep, I will forget about any unhappiness. It usually works. I think.
And now, here I am typing away. My mind just wants to shut itself down again. It has been my natural defence mechanism against any form of unhappiness. Just press the off button and things won't be as bad. Ignorance is indeed bliss.
Tonight, dad and mum are going for a short holiday again. And I will be lonely again. Yes, my brother(s) will be at home, but what I wanted....
Am I thinking too much? If I am, please come to me and give me a slap to wake me up. Sometimes I ponder, what do I really want? Time? Hug? Laughter? Yes, I need them all and more.
I need recognition.
Sunday, May 02, 2010
3 down, 1 to go
So far, I have cleared 3 papers, namely Maths II, Physics II, and Computing, leaving me with Chemistry.
I am guilty to admit I have started my mini-celebrations right after my Computing paper on last wednesday. I brought back most of my stuff in hall, and thanks to Teh's parents who offered to send me home with all my stuff. So I started throwing aside all my mugging and started chionging FB and CoH.
So many days have passed, and I admit I played a lot. After all, Chemistry is the easiest paper, even easier than 'A' levels. But like what Teh warned, if its an easy paper, expect the bell curve to shift against your favour. I have already started preparing for the paper on next Tuesday. And afterwhich, its really time to put the books aside. I am already planning what to do after that:
1. Bring back all my belongings from Hall.
2. Tidy up my room.
3. Start training for IPPT again.
4. Complete my remaining modelling kits. (King Tiger, F-16, German Panzer Grenadiers)
5. Read my self-improvement books.
6. Watch Letters from Iwo Jima and Flags of our Fathers.
7. Prepare for my 3 modules at SAFTI MI.
8. Driving Lessons.
9. Movie & Drama Marathon with her.
10. Holiday? K.I.V.
11. National Runway Cycling
12. AHM!!!!!
Well, the abovementioned are non-exhaustive and are based on what I can think of now. Subject to changes, depending on circumstances.
I just watch "Ice Kachang Puppy Love" with her at GV Plazza on Friday night and I am going to give it a 4/5. Totally worth the watch, and to me, the ending was kind of unexpected, though she somewhat predicted the ending. Heh. A touching movie which I can relate to rather well, and many a times, I saw her in "Da Jia Yu" or "fighting-fish", rolepalyed by Li Sinje. Hahahaha. But that's what make a person different, unique and worth cherishing. :)
Had a mini-date with her on last wednesday after my papers too at Siglap Pizza Hut. Her sis worked there too and it was kinda interesting seeing how to the two of them 'interact' even with my prescence. Hahahaha. I cannot imagine if I were her sibling, probably get bullied everyday too.... :X I hope I am won't end up like that after we settle down.
As for yesterday, I woke up at 1230pm, had lunch, and KO-ed from 2pm to 6pm. :S Totally like a pig. So now I am going to chiong my Chem till late to redeem myself. Till the next time. :)
I am guilty to admit I have started my mini-celebrations right after my Computing paper on last wednesday. I brought back most of my stuff in hall, and thanks to Teh's parents who offered to send me home with all my stuff. So I started throwing aside all my mugging and started chionging FB and CoH.
So many days have passed, and I admit I played a lot. After all, Chemistry is the easiest paper, even easier than 'A' levels. But like what Teh warned, if its an easy paper, expect the bell curve to shift against your favour. I have already started preparing for the paper on next Tuesday. And afterwhich, its really time to put the books aside. I am already planning what to do after that:
1. Bring back all my belongings from Hall.
2. Tidy up my room.
3. Start training for IPPT again.
4. Complete my remaining modelling kits. (King Tiger, F-16, German Panzer Grenadiers)
5. Read my self-improvement books.
6. Watch Letters from Iwo Jima and Flags of our Fathers.
7. Prepare for my 3 modules at SAFTI MI.
8. Driving Lessons.
9. Movie & Drama Marathon with her.
10. Holiday? K.I.V.
11. National Runway Cycling
12. AHM!!!!!
Well, the abovementioned are non-exhaustive and are based on what I can think of now. Subject to changes, depending on circumstances.
I just watch "Ice Kachang Puppy Love" with her at GV Plazza on Friday night and I am going to give it a 4/5. Totally worth the watch, and to me, the ending was kind of unexpected, though she somewhat predicted the ending. Heh. A touching movie which I can relate to rather well, and many a times, I saw her in "Da Jia Yu" or "fighting-fish", rolepalyed by Li Sinje. Hahahaha. But that's what make a person different, unique and worth cherishing. :)
Had a mini-date with her on last wednesday after my papers too at Siglap Pizza Hut. Her sis worked there too and it was kinda interesting seeing how to the two of them 'interact' even with my prescence. Hahahaha. I cannot imagine if I were her sibling, probably get bullied everyday too.... :X I hope I am won't end up like that after we settle down.
As for yesterday, I woke up at 1230pm, had lunch, and KO-ed from 2pm to 6pm. :S Totally like a pig. So now I am going to chiong my Chem till late to redeem myself. Till the next time. :)
Saturday, May 01, 2010
Movies Worth Watching
(L) Ice Kachang Puppy Love, (L) How to Train Your Dragon, (L) Alice in Wonderland, (L) 72 Tenants of Prosperity, (L) The Spy Next Door, (L) Its Complicated (150110), Cirque du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant, (L) The Princess & The Frog, (L) New Moon, 2012, (L) My Sister's Keeper, Funny People (not really favourite), Up, Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs, Angels and Demons, X-Men Origins, Twilight, The Day the Earth Stood Still, Fantastic 4: Rise of the Silver Surfer, Bolt, Troy, Kunfu Panda, Red Cliff, Red Cliff II, Star Wars Pre-Trilogy and Star Wars Trilogy, Harry Potter Series
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Life Partners
Its a funny feeling...
I went around stalking on FB, and I come to point of realisation that many of my friends have found their other half. I wonder if its because they are really into each other or are they simply getting their life partners for the sake of settling down, as per convention. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with me, and I am definitely not against people with someone whom they feel attached to. It just so happens to be my observation.
Maybe I am a bit slow, or some people decided to keep their relationship in a low profile, but I was really surprised when I see friends changing their relationship status ever since the last time I looked at their profile. Of course, while there are pairs who changed theirs from 'Single' to 'In a relationship', there's the other side of the coin too... Believe it or not, I do feel happy when I see couples forming, and kinda sad when some didn't work out eventually.
I have been through both, so I know how it feels. I guess it's important to pick wisely, and one should always look far. By that, I mean when you choose a partner, search for the qualities worthy of a good spouse, in the prospective guy or girl. After all, he or she is someone you are going to face for the rest of your life if things proceed smoothly. (Unless you are looking for a short relationship or not planning to get married.) True, these qualities might change with time, but there will be some that never change, and that is what you must look out for and hold onto. That is what will keep you two together no matter what, for you will be reminded that you love this person because of these qualities. That was what failed in my previous relationship. Both of us changed our qualities and those that never changed are not what we truly want. I won't comment on what were the changes, but I think the two of us know them, deep inside. After all, 1348 days is a long long time, to me. I have moved on ever since, but I made sure the lessons learnt stay with me no matter what.
When I came across Miss A and Miss B's profile, and looking at their photos, I admit I felt a little sour. But I also know, I am glad there are better people out there, and I will give them my blessings. I know things aren't going to work out anyway, so why make myself feel worst isn't it?
As for my other half and me, it was a roller coaster ride. :) Plenty of Ups and Downs. And mind you, the Ups were really sky-high and the Downs were really deep-down. Its the journey that truly matters. Indeed, I love thrill rides, but 'safety' is of paramount importance. No one likes it when it gets too thrilling to the point beyond control, where someone eventually gets more scared than thrilled and accidents happen. (Ok, I don't mean to be lame, but it sounds like Final Destination III). That is where the qualities come in. I remind myself constantly that hey, nothing is perfect and I pre-empted her that there will be times when we will start to see the uglier side of each other. Its only through crisises that we know each other better. And thus far, I am thankful for the crisises, for we have been through quite a few and surviving them will only make our bond stronger. But I will not want to undergo them again, thanks. :S Trust and communication are also key to any relationship, and they act as complements. One cannot do without the other. So far, we have thrashed out many issues, and I am glad to know what's on her mind. When you stop hiding, you start appreciating. :)
It's been a wonderful 3 months+, and I will definitely look forward to plenty more ups and downs. Ultimately, I made that decision, and I will not regret. :D
I went around stalking on FB, and I come to point of realisation that many of my friends have found their other half. I wonder if its because they are really into each other or are they simply getting their life partners for the sake of settling down, as per convention. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with me, and I am definitely not against people with someone whom they feel attached to. It just so happens to be my observation.
Maybe I am a bit slow, or some people decided to keep their relationship in a low profile, but I was really surprised when I see friends changing their relationship status ever since the last time I looked at their profile. Of course, while there are pairs who changed theirs from 'Single' to 'In a relationship', there's the other side of the coin too... Believe it or not, I do feel happy when I see couples forming, and kinda sad when some didn't work out eventually.
I have been through both, so I know how it feels. I guess it's important to pick wisely, and one should always look far. By that, I mean when you choose a partner, search for the qualities worthy of a good spouse, in the prospective guy or girl. After all, he or she is someone you are going to face for the rest of your life if things proceed smoothly. (Unless you are looking for a short relationship or not planning to get married.) True, these qualities might change with time, but there will be some that never change, and that is what you must look out for and hold onto. That is what will keep you two together no matter what, for you will be reminded that you love this person because of these qualities. That was what failed in my previous relationship. Both of us changed our qualities and those that never changed are not what we truly want. I won't comment on what were the changes, but I think the two of us know them, deep inside. After all, 1348 days is a long long time, to me. I have moved on ever since, but I made sure the lessons learnt stay with me no matter what.
When I came across Miss A and Miss B's profile, and looking at their photos, I admit I felt a little sour. But I also know, I am glad there are better people out there, and I will give them my blessings. I know things aren't going to work out anyway, so why make myself feel worst isn't it?
As for my other half and me, it was a roller coaster ride. :) Plenty of Ups and Downs. And mind you, the Ups were really sky-high and the Downs were really deep-down. Its the journey that truly matters. Indeed, I love thrill rides, but 'safety' is of paramount importance. No one likes it when it gets too thrilling to the point beyond control, where someone eventually gets more scared than thrilled and accidents happen. (Ok, I don't mean to be lame, but it sounds like Final Destination III). That is where the qualities come in. I remind myself constantly that hey, nothing is perfect and I pre-empted her that there will be times when we will start to see the uglier side of each other. Its only through crisises that we know each other better. And thus far, I am thankful for the crisises, for we have been through quite a few and surviving them will only make our bond stronger. But I will not want to undergo them again, thanks. :S Trust and communication are also key to any relationship, and they act as complements. One cannot do without the other. So far, we have thrashed out many issues, and I am glad to know what's on her mind. When you stop hiding, you start appreciating. :)
It's been a wonderful 3 months+, and I will definitely look forward to plenty more ups and downs. Ultimately, I made that decision, and I will not regret. :D
< 3 more days...
Exam starts in just ...less than 3 days.
Thursday's my first paper - FE1007 (Mathematics II). Subsequently....
26th April - FE1002 (Physics II)
28th April - FE1008 (Computing)
4th May - FE1003 (Chemistry)
I just finished doing the Maths II past year paper. 1 paper only. And there still plenty more practices to go. Sigh~ I shall go to bed after typing finish this entry.
I know I know, I have been missing plenty of updates since the last proper entry. I am too lazy to backlog and too forgetful to remember the details. But nonetheless, some of the 'milestones' for the past weeks include:
HELL WEEK
Monday 050410
Tuesday 060410
Now that time really flies, I felt that semester made me realise that for every good, theres a bad, when you gain, you lose. Basically the world is fair.
I am embarking on my next phase soon. I want to clear that 3 modules during my VA, but I also want to participate in NDP this year. I know I cannot have the best of both worlds, but I will try nonetheless. At least I tried.
Dad warned me not go near the waters, especially the beach or swimming pool during the lunar 9th month. Well, basically, my parents went back to M'sia for Qing Ming and my mum had her fortune read there. Apparently, the first thing the fortune teller told my mum, was a stern warning: Don't let your youngest son go near the anywhere with water, because.... I leave it to your imagination. It does give me the creeps as my dad kept reminding me over and over after they returned. I don't believe entirely in these fore-warnings, but its better to be safe than sorry right?
Anyway, TEH moved out last Friday, and now I had the whole room to myself. TEH, I told you I will dedicate an entry for you, so here it is! :D HAHAHAHA... But it does feel kinda lonely. And its not that lonely that someone who you are so used to seeing each day, leaves you temporarily. Its the kind of loneliness where you know you will probably not see each other in the same setting and that often any longer. :( TEH, are you touched? HAHAHAHA. I know you are, even thoguh you don't say, coz I know deep inside.... (*You fill in the rest of the standard statements/remarks I always make to make you cringe in disgust/paiseh*) HAHAHA. He is a nice person though we always suan and make fun of each other. Its been a great year sleeping together..... :X Oh did you know we were schoolmates/CCA-mates in secondary school and BMT Platoon/Section/Bed buddies? The best part, our beds were literally in-contact side by side! So if I won't be surprise if I roll over to him during my sleep... Hmmm, so when are you getting l*id again?
Ok, get it straight - I AM STRAIGHT. :) TEH, happy or not? :D
Wah... DBT. I got to catch my rest le.... Till the next time....
Thursday's my first paper - FE1007 (Mathematics II). Subsequently....
26th April - FE1002 (Physics II)
28th April - FE1008 (Computing)
4th May - FE1003 (Chemistry)
I just finished doing the Maths II past year paper. 1 paper only. And there still plenty more practices to go. Sigh~ I shall go to bed after typing finish this entry.
I know I know, I have been missing plenty of updates since the last proper entry. I am too lazy to backlog and too forgetful to remember the details. But nonetheless, some of the 'milestones' for the past weeks include:
HELL WEEK
Monday 050410
- Driving Practical Test on 5th April: 'F'
- Chemistry Test: Quite difficult, I probably get 8/10 at most. (8/10 is considered poor for an MCQ, thanks to the bell-curve effect from the ATs)
Tuesday 060410
- IPPT: 'S' --- No, 'S' does not stand for Satisfactory; it's SILVER -.- Will definitely take again to get my GOLD.
- Maths II & Computing Test: Seriously, I got conned by my Maths tutor. I memorised all the past year questions as he said he will pick the questions there and none came out. Computing was a stunner, because the tutor set a question on the context of topics we yet to cover. He make me waste time figuring out if its a deliberate bug or not in the program codes.
Now that time really flies, I felt that semester made me realise that for every good, theres a bad, when you gain, you lose. Basically the world is fair.
- I get more time and freedom, but I lost the motivation and sense of urgency.
- I found my life partner, but that means I have to divert my time and resources away from what I am spending.
- I got a 4-day week, but I had to cramp all my lessons especially my tutorials.
- I have lesser modules this semester, but I have to take more subsequently.
- I had my happy days, but there are times I felt depressed too.
- I spend a lot on myself, such as braces, driving lessons, but I gained better dental health and a chance to get my liscence.
- I complain and blame why there are so many problems, but every thought made me mature and I realise the world is fair.
I am embarking on my next phase soon. I want to clear that 3 modules during my VA, but I also want to participate in NDP this year. I know I cannot have the best of both worlds, but I will try nonetheless. At least I tried.
Dad warned me not go near the waters, especially the beach or swimming pool during the lunar 9th month. Well, basically, my parents went back to M'sia for Qing Ming and my mum had her fortune read there. Apparently, the first thing the fortune teller told my mum, was a stern warning: Don't let your youngest son go near the anywhere with water, because.... I leave it to your imagination. It does give me the creeps as my dad kept reminding me over and over after they returned. I don't believe entirely in these fore-warnings, but its better to be safe than sorry right?
Anyway, TEH moved out last Friday, and now I had the whole room to myself. TEH, I told you I will dedicate an entry for you, so here it is! :D HAHAHAHA... But it does feel kinda lonely. And its not that lonely that someone who you are so used to seeing each day, leaves you temporarily. Its the kind of loneliness where you know you will probably not see each other in the same setting and that often any longer. :( TEH, are you touched? HAHAHAHA. I know you are, even thoguh you don't say, coz I know deep inside.... (*You fill in the rest of the standard statements/remarks I always make to make you cringe in disgust/paiseh*) HAHAHA. He is a nice person though we always suan and make fun of each other. Its been a great year sleeping together..... :X Oh did you know we were schoolmates/CCA-mates in secondary school and BMT Platoon/Section/Bed buddies? The best part, our beds were literally in-contact side by side! So if I won't be surprise if I roll over to him during my sleep... Hmmm, so when are you getting l*id again?
Ok, get it straight - I AM STRAIGHT. :) TEH, happy or not? :D
Wah... DBT. I got to catch my rest le.... Till the next time....
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