Last day of August

What's so special about today? Well, its the last day of August!

Ok, its actually the day we are going to Genting! We have been looking forward to it for so many months. Its been a long but worthwhile wait. In fact, the journey was sweeter than anything else. The anticipation, the time spent together, planning, etc. We got much closer despite the occasional frictions along the way. I must say, we are on our way to help lower 'the barrier'. I know its not going to be easy, but I am always willing to wait.

We will be taking the bus tonight, with her mum, bro and sis. :) Haha. Mini-honeymoon with her family. Coming back on Friday night. I shall bask in the cool weather, thrill rides, indoor activities, food, etc. Most important, its OUR time. No burdens to think of, no worries. Just the two of us.

So far, I have experienced a lot. With our 8th month coming up, I have been brought to the extremes and questioned myself - Why? I know this sounds very abstract for those reading this, but let me rant ok? Many times, I hid myself up to think, and they just start to well up. I cannot help it; but more importantly, you didn't want to witness it. I had no choice but to bury it deep in me, so that no one ends up like me. Sometimes, all I want is a listening ear, which I cannot seem to get hold of. I want to rant as much too, but no one is there. So I have to resort to typing away or simply sleeping it away, hopefully it will fade away...

But it was you, again, who brought me back to my senses and gave me the strength to go on. It was a subconscious effort and I am appreciating the beauty in you day by day. That is what is keeping us bonded - you.

I may have 'invested' more than I should or can afford to, but that's me - foolish, impulsive, but generous once you gain my trust. That is the way I deal with people. The more sincere and generous you are to me, The more I will return you the favour; twofold, tenfold. Because you deserve it. :)

Anyway, I am just looking forward to it. Regardless what happens, I just want this trip to be our milestone. I want us to be happier and closer than ever before. That is the main objective.

School has started too. Its the first week, and the second day today. I attended the first lecture yesterday and it was interesting. Poor Jonathan got PS-ed by almost everyone, and he was the only one in uniform. I told him about my concerns which was about the image we have to uphold, and its not easy.

Currently, I am suffering from plantar warts. Luckily, I went ot see the doc with my bro and mum last Sunday. The doctor diagnosed it, and said it wasn't the foot corn I so confidently speculated. Unlike foot corn, which is the thickening of the skin due to pressure, plantar warts is a form of viral infection. -_-' The current treatment is via chemical means - to apply acid over the affected skin and peel away the whitish, hardened dead skin layer and repeat the procedure for a month. If it doesn't work, then it will be either burnt away via laser or frozen by liquid nitrogen. Cold & hot treatment uh? -_-"

And as I end this note off, I shall wish everyone a good start to school and good health! Don't end up like me, take my health for granted and suffer. :(

Happy 45th Birthday Singapore!

Today is a significant day for all of us, Singaporeans.

As we watch in awe at the wonderful fireworks, I wonder how many of us actually know the meaning of 9th August. I wonder how many of us actually thought it was a 'show'. I have been involved in NDP 3 times - 2001 as a mass display participant, 2008 as a Reserve Colours Ensign and in 2009, as a Colours Ensign. I have seen the background work, the amount of sweat put in by our fellow Singaporeans, from all walks of life. I know the meaning of National Day Parade.

As I watched the Parade and Show, memories flash back. As the National Anthem is plaed or the State flag fly past, my hair stood. I remember how proud I was donning my ceremonial uniform and holding my unit's Colour, the sense of pride in me overwhelmed my senses. I nearly teared when I heard Kit Chan singing Home once again. Yes, this is my Singapore, my home.

While some might think I have been brain-washed or I am brainwashing you, let's just say you have the option to read on or leave this page.

So anyway, what does NDP mean to me? I think its a form of celebration, to remember what our forefathers have done to give us the peaceful and high standards of living we are enjoying. Like what the theme song this year mentioned: "Sometimes the best things are taken for granted..." Indeed, I am sure majority of us, including myself have taken the life we have here for granted. Its not wrong, its just human nature. We always think the grass is greener on the other side. But are you sure its really that good? Even if it is, to put it bluntly, you are being ungrateful and realisitic.

Just like our parents. The way you treat your nation is how you treat your parents.

Without them, are you able to even complain this and that? Are you able to breathe normally, have your meals or enjoy the material comforts they provide for you? Will you have a home?

I am reflecting on all these, to remind myself, that I must treasure whats important and close to me. Because I never want to regret what I failed to cherish.

Live our Dreams, Fly our Flag. Proudly.

Happy National Day, my fellow Singaporeans. :)

Back to Work

Its really tedious to recollect some of my past memories to update about what's going on for the past 2 months. I am going to start blogging about these few days first.

Today is a lazy day. Rain outside, and I didn't step out of home. Just wanna savour the last moments of my freedom and rest while I can. Tmr, I will be starting work again. And this week, I will be organising a team-building session. Hope all turns out fine this thursday.

The past 12 weeks of studying in uniform was quite an experience for me. I think its the best 'vacation' I ever had. Study, break, study, break, study break, study exam, exam, exam break, rest and the cycle repeats. Met new friends and forged new bonds.

I did a lot of reflection and self-mastery and realised a lot about myself. Learnt many new concepts which I believe will help in my career too. I just want to be the best I can and hope to achieve what I set out to do.

If I can summarise my learnings, it would be: Perception and Choice.

Upcoming events: NDP, YOG, Holidays, AHM!

Well, whats left ahead of me is 4 weeks of work before school reopens. Looking forward to HOLIDAYS!!!!! :)

2 more weeks to our 7th! :)

Happy Weeks (Part 1)

I am lazy. That's the reason why I have been MIA. I am probably going semi-active till further notice.

Decided to update this blog about some of the important events that happened these weeks.

Highlights since 060610:

080610 Mum's birthday celebration @ Somerset 313
We got a little cheated by the restaurant staff. Nvm... Took many photos, and my relatives were there. My lil nephew - Edawn, my cousins and auntie came too and we took many many photos. It was my first time holding a kid's hands while shopping outside and taking care of him. Looking at him, I now know how impish I was when I was younger...

120610
Didn't get to meet her as its NDP rehearsal, and she won't be back early. Went to Parkway Parade Challenger to look for the laptop casing that she wanted (when we were looking for it at Tampines Mall Challenger) but couldn't find. Dropped by her house at night to give her the dumplings my parents made for her. She wasn't around, so I passed it to her mother instead. Hope she liked them. She lost her voice.... :(


130610 Outing with her to IKEA Tampines
First thing to do - Solve her tutee's maths question via email. Haha. I must say the kids these days are really poor thing... Doing more and more challenging problems at a younger age. So anyway, we met at Tanjong Katong Complex first for her to get her contact lens, but its closed. Then took train to Tampines MRT station and boarded the shuttle bus there. On the bus, something ' interesting' happened, when she told the couple at the back of the bus off for not moving in, in order to let more people board the bus. Haha. It was the first time I witnessed her public-self. :P

Walked around IKEA and along the way, I was kind of hurt by the things she said/did. Not going to say much since its over and I am no longer bogged down by it :) Had early dinner at the food centre within IKEA. Had a hard time dissecting the chicken wings with fork and knife. Haha. Learnt something new, at least.

Walked around Tampines Mall, One and Centur Square before heading home...


150610 Our 5 Months Anniversary
Well, we didn't celebrate given our busy schedule, and it wasn't really our normal practice to celebrate monthly anniversaries, but at least we made a point to remember it and use it as a simple milestone to our journey. Sent her a long SMS to tell her everything I needed. :)


160610 SF0003 Examinations
Phew, The first paper is finally over!!! Its kinda intersting going back to NTU and seeing how it has turned into 'Nanyang Prison'. I can understand if they are setting up a fence on the outer perimeteres, but the inside too?! So now there's inner and outer cordon. Now I know why Uni students can complain so much about this and that. This is how education has brought us to this point - we start observing and making a big fuss out of everything we don't understand.

Anyway, the paper was manaegable. I dare say I can pass, but I wonder how well will I do eventually. Kinda interesting to observe that half the examination hall was filled with uni students and the other half in No. 3 or No. 4 uniforms. Heh.

By the time the paper was over, I was seriously brain-drained. Never have I felt any more tired mentally than today. Perhaps its due to the lack of sleep as well... And the best part - I haven't prepare for the paper the next day... ARGH!!!!


170610 SF0001 Examinations
At last! Its over!!! After cramping all the information The paper today was crazily outrageous. As I type this entry, I barely remember what I learnt. I mean, its not that its not beneficial, but I think I can hardly relate to what was taught at the present moment. Oh well, its a pilot project, and who knows, maybe one day I might just find it useful. Super drained now... Going to play for the next few days before 'school' starts again.

I shall continue on the next entry... Till then!

Nearly a Hat Trick

This entry serves to back-log last weekend.

I nearly scored a hat-trick last weekend. We dated on Thursday, Saturday and Sunday. I could have been 4 consecutive dates, but we decided to have a break in between on Friday.

Thursday
We met up and it was a long time since we went out. The previous weekend, we didn't go out on a date, it was just a meet-up. Hence, we were glad to see each other since the long interval.

Went out for Korean Dinner at Suntec City after meeting at City Hall MRT. Not too bad, and it was my first time having Korean. Not too bad. 2 dishes were more than enough for the two of us to share. Then we went shopping at Toys 'R' Us nearby and around Suntec  and given her condition relapse, I had to send her home soonafter. After all, we were going to meet soon again.

Saturday
Movie day! Went to Vivo-City in the afternoon to watch Sex & the City 2. She just came over after her CCA in school. The film was rated M18 - Matured Themes. Not too bad a film and it really makes me ponder about certain issues. I guess that's what the city-dwellers face, not just in the western part of the world.

Then, we were thinknig of where to have our dinner. Since we were not too hungry, we decided to tour around Vivo and took several photos. The sceneries were good, especially with the Sentosa IR as the background. However, things turned a little unpleasant in between. She claimed that I wasn't smiling genuinely when I dare say I was. Well, it all started out from something quite small, but it triggered a big issue... I am not going to dwell on it as we have moved on since.

After walking around, we decided to head to PS for Xin Wang. When we arrived, we were disappointed to no good seats left. So we changed plans and head off to Changi Airport. Haha. She was kinda surprised at how readily I agreed. Haha. Took the train, and toured around before settling at the Xin Wang there. Apparently. there was a long queue too, but not wanting to look for antoher place, we waited for our turn for nearly half-an-hour and chatted as we wait. Dinner was simple but good. Had a rather sumptous meal of curry chicken noodles and some dim sum (late at night). Indeed what mattered most is who you are dining with, which will make the most difference.

We left afterwhich and I sent her home. We are meeting the following day!

Sunday!
Ok, it was a just a simple dinner and drama-watching at my side. But it was the company that counts. Papa and Mama were delighted to see her again. :) Well, it was 4.5, but it wasn't anyone's fault. I kept insisting and I think I shouldn't have. Only made things worst. Sigh. I regretted.

On the way back, I realised how difficult it was to hold back the tears. There was just too much on my mind and I needed time alnoe to think through. I was upset, but I didn't want that to infect her. So I chose to bottle up again...

Fortunately, we managed to resolve it over the phone via SMS and calls and things got a lot better thereafter. :)

Well, that sums up the date last week. Ups and Downs, but at least I could see her again.

THERAPIES!!!

I LOVE THERAPIES!!!! :):):)

Woohoo! Ok, just had a great one. No, its not that typical therapy. I am talking about something else. Something that is... unique. :)

Ok, my cheeks are stiff from all the smiling and laughter. This is what I want. Something simple yet never fails to boost my morale and give me the reason to believe in all the hard work I put in. And that is all I needed.

Its really amazing when/that "Life's Simple Pleasures Came From You". Indeed. I will cherish it.

Busy

Busy. Indeed, since the last time I blogged, it has been nothing but rest.

Its already the second of my 'studies' and I must say, time isn't on my side. Sigh. Still procrastinating. The modules are somewhat relevant to my career but one of them seemed rater abstract. I am kinda struggling to stay abreast with the lectures and amount of readings. There goes my weekend.

I am sort of giving up on Mafia Wars on Facebook. Just playing occasionally these days. I guessed I reached the point of boredom, knowing that I have overcame the gears and obstacles in the game.

Relationship-wise, lots of events both minor and major happened. It was not a smooth journey and the 'honeymoon' era seemed to have slwoly faded. Yet, I am not disheartened nor do I regret, for it is only expected that the sweet times will only last so long, and that in fact is the true start, to test the strength of the relationship. I am confident, despite the pain, cold and hurt incurred by me. I must emphasize: I am not being emo here. Rather, I am reflecting on the past. What I say, the tone I used, may drop a hint of sadness, but I am definitely able to pick myself up. I am merely putting those memories to words, so I can archive and reflect upon myself after some time.

I have never been more serious in any relationship. I am sure, with time, and some compromise, plus plenty of trust and communication, we will be putting on the rings for each other. :)

I have also somewhat concluded on our 'weaknesses'. I am sure she knew whats one thing that 'annoy' her and as for her, well I shall not comment here. But I find the issues nothing that serious. It may even turn out to be something pleasant eventually.

No matter what I say or feel, as long as you don't let go, I will always be there. :)

Mother's Day in advance!

Had a fulfilling day. And another milestone to our journey.

Went out for dental appointment in the afternoon in the pouring rain. The colour combination for the next 4 weeks - Yellow and Purple. As usual, it was chosen by her, and the reason for this comib? We were on an SBS Transit bus and she got the idea from the bus-pole, which was purple and the bell was yellow. :)

So afterwhich, I went back and got a haircut from the usual barber uncle. Not too bad, at least this time the hairstyle was what I wanted, not too thin and short, just nice.

So after showering, I was pondering if I should head off for the library to read my books. Somehow the rain made me felt lazy and I didn't want to spend the extra money on transportation or food, so I gave it a miss. What a blessing in disguise, as she called me out since her mum invited me for dinner together to celebrate Mother's day in advance. :) In fact I missed 2 phone calls, until I received the message later. But thankfully, I still got the info in time and quickly changed my attire and head off to Marina Square Yuki Yaki.

I got the table and shortly after, she and her mum and sis arrived. It was a dinner full of laughter and I got teased many times for not holding the chopsticks properly. Oh well, its a bad habit and I have to undergo lessons from her already. Got told off many times either for doing it wrongly or not doing something correctly. Heh. Well, I am used to it, and must adapt. Thanks to her mum for kept telling her off in return. Haha. And my poor dentist became the target board for her to vent her frustration. She insisted her sis foot the bill, so I had no choice. We went shopping for my sneakers while her mum and sis went downstairs to to shop for clothes. We didn't buy any sneakers in the end as there isn't the right size for the shoes she picked. Plus, the service isn't that good either.

Went down to walk around then we decided to head to Suntec City's Haagen Dazs to have our desserts. I decided to treat them, since her sis forked out for dinner already. Not too bad, but definitely very sinful. It was also my gift for her mother since we were celebrating Mother's Day. :)

So we headed back home via EW line and it was also the first time I stepped into her house. At last. Her dad left a very good impression, at least better than I thought/ was told. Well, I will remember this day indeed. I didn't stay long, for it was rather late, and she bade me goodbye.

Looks like we have advanced further. I will continue to work hard. :)

End of Exams.

Well, technically, it ended on Tuesday.

The worst of the semester may be over, but somehow, I don't feel overjoyed. Yes, the burden is off, no need to take the train every other day, and I don't need to worry about waking up early and eating the same canteen food. But I just don't know why its just like any other day. Maybe I play too much. Maybe I expected it. Maybe I am worried for results. Maybe I know that these 4 months or so aren't exactly a holiday period.

Yesterday, as I walked back to the bus stop, I couldn't help but look down and sigh. It was a really slow walk, and suddenly my eyes just start to well up again. I didn't turn back, for I didn't want to be disappointed. I am not trying to be emo. Its just me who likes to keep thinking. I just blame myself whenever things go wrong. I don't ask for much, but when I do, I really need it. A simple thing, a simple gesture. Someone once sang this to me: "If you miss the train I am on, you will know that I am gone...." That time, the lyrics went in my head and came out the other side. Now I truly experienced what it meant and the pain behind.

When I don't say, it doesn't mean I am fine.

No, its not anyone's fault. It may contradict with what I say, but really, I cannot blame others. I learnt my lesson. And I learnt it the hard way. Even if I think its their fault, who am I to point fingers? It doesn't solve the problem and I end up hurting others.

At the bus-stop, I made a wish. I wished that after a night's sleep, I will forget about any unhappiness. It usually works. I think.

And now, here I am typing away. My mind just wants to shut itself down again. It has been my natural defence mechanism against any form of unhappiness. Just press the off button and things won't be as bad. Ignorance is indeed bliss.

Tonight, dad and mum are going for a short holiday again. And I will be lonely again. Yes, my brother(s) will be at home, but what I wanted....

Am I thinking too much? If I am, please come to me and give me a slap to wake me up. Sometimes I ponder, what do I really want? Time? Hug? Laughter? Yes, I need them all and more.

I need recognition.

3 down, 1 to go

So far, I have cleared 3 papers, namely Maths II, Physics II, and Computing, leaving me with Chemistry.

I am guilty to admit I have started my mini-celebrations right after my Computing paper on last wednesday. I brought back most of my stuff in hall, and thanks to Teh's parents who offered to send me home with all my stuff. So I started throwing aside all my mugging and started chionging FB and CoH.

So many days have passed, and I admit I played a lot. After all, Chemistry is the easiest paper, even easier than 'A' levels. But like what Teh warned, if its an easy paper, expect the bell curve to shift against your favour. I have already started preparing for the paper on next Tuesday. And afterwhich, its really time to put the books aside. I am already planning what to do after that:

1. Bring back all my belongings from Hall.
2. Tidy up my room.
3. Start training for IPPT again.
4. Complete my remaining modelling kits. (King Tiger, F-16, German Panzer Grenadiers)
5. Read my self-improvement books.
6. Watch Letters from Iwo Jima and Flags of our Fathers.
7. Prepare for my 3 modules at SAFTI MI.
8. Driving Lessons.
9. Movie & Drama Marathon with her.
10. Holiday? K.I.V.
11. National Runway Cycling
12. AHM!!!!!

Well, the abovementioned are non-exhaustive and are based on what I can think of now. Subject to changes, depending on circumstances.

I just watch "Ice Kachang Puppy Love" with her at GV Plazza on Friday night and I am going to give it a 4/5. Totally worth the watch, and to me, the ending was kind of unexpected, though she somewhat predicted the ending. Heh. A touching movie which I can relate to rather well, and many a times, I saw her in "Da Jia Yu" or "fighting-fish",  rolepalyed by Li Sinje. Hahahaha. But that's what make a person different, unique and worth cherishing. :)

Had a mini-date with her on last wednesday after my papers too at Siglap Pizza Hut. Her sis worked there too and it was kinda interesting seeing how to the two of them 'interact' even with my prescence. Hahahaha. I cannot imagine if I were her sibling, probably get bullied everyday too.... :X I hope I am won't end up like that after we settle down.

As for yesterday, I woke up at 1230pm, had lunch, and KO-ed from 2pm to 6pm. :S Totally like a pig. So now I am going to chiong my Chem till late to redeem myself. Till the next time. :)

Movies Worth Watching

(L) Ice Kachang Puppy Love, (L) How to Train Your Dragon, (L) Alice in Wonderland, (L) 72 Tenants of Prosperity, (L) The Spy Next Door, (L) Its Complicated (150110), Cirque du Freak: The Vampire's Assistant, (L) The Princess & The Frog, (L) New Moon, 2012, (L) My Sister's Keeper, Funny People (not really favourite), Up, Ice Age 3: Dawn of the Dinosaurs, Angels and Demons, X-Men Origins, Twilight, The Day the Earth Stood Still, Fantastic 4: Rise of the Silver Surfer, Bolt, Troy, Kunfu Panda, Red Cliff, Red Cliff II, Star Wars Pre-Trilogy and Star Wars Trilogy, Harry Potter Series

Life Partners

Its a funny feeling...

I went around stalking on FB, and I come to point of realisation that many of my friends have found their other half. I wonder if its because they are really into each other or are they simply getting their life partners for the sake of settling down, as per convention. Don't get me wrong, there's nothing wrong with me, and I am definitely not against people with someone whom they feel attached to. It just so happens to be my observation.

Maybe I am a bit slow, or some people decided to keep their relationship in a low profile, but I was really surprised when I see friends changing their relationship status ever since the last time I looked at their profile. Of course, while there are pairs who changed theirs from 'Single' to 'In a relationship', there's the other side of the coin too... Believe it or not, I do feel happy when I see couples forming, and kinda sad when some didn't work out eventually.

I have been through both, so I know how it feels. I guess it's important to pick wisely, and one should always look far. By that, I mean when you choose a partner, search for the qualities worthy of a good spouse, in the prospective guy or girl. After all, he or she is someone you are going to face for the rest of your life if things proceed smoothly. (Unless you are looking for a short relationship or not planning to get married.) True, these qualities might change with time, but there will be some that never change, and that is what you must look out for and hold onto. That is what will keep you two together no matter what, for you will be reminded that you love this person because of these qualities. That was what failed in my previous relationship. Both of us changed our qualities and those that never changed are not what we truly want. I won't comment on what were the changes, but I think the two of us know them, deep inside. After all, 1348 days is a long long time, to me. I have moved on ever since, but I made sure the lessons learnt stay with me no matter what.

When I came across Miss A and Miss B's profile, and looking at their photos, I admit I felt a little sour. But I also know, I am glad there are better people out there, and I will give them my blessings. I know things aren't going to work out anyway, so why make myself feel worst isn't it?

As for my other half and me, it was a roller coaster ride. :) Plenty of Ups and Downs. And mind you, the Ups were really sky-high and the Downs were really deep-down. Its the journey that truly matters. Indeed, I love thrill rides, but 'safety' is of paramount importance. No one likes it when it gets too thrilling to the point beyond control, where someone eventually gets more scared than thrilled and accidents happen. (Ok, I don't mean to be lame, but it sounds like Final Destination III). That is where the qualities come in. I remind myself constantly that hey, nothing is perfect and I pre-empted her that there will be times when we will start to see the uglier side of each other. Its only through crisises that we know each other better. And thus far, I am thankful for the crisises, for we have been through quite a few and surviving them will only make our bond stronger. But I will not want to undergo them again, thanks. :S Trust and communication are also key to any relationship, and they act as complements. One cannot do without the other. So far, we have thrashed out many issues, and I am glad to know what's on her mind. When you stop hiding, you start appreciating. :)

It's been a wonderful 3 months+, and I will definitely look forward to plenty more ups and downs. Ultimately, I made that decision, and I will not regret. :D

< 3 more days...

Exam starts in just ...less than 3 days.

Thursday's my first paper - FE1007 (Mathematics II). Subsequently....

26th April - FE1002 (Physics II)
28th April - FE1008 (Computing)
4th May - FE1003 (Chemistry)

I just finished doing the Maths II past year paper. 1 paper only. And there still plenty more practices to go. Sigh~ I shall go to bed after typing finish this entry.

I know I know, I have been missing plenty of updates since the last proper entry. I am too lazy to backlog and too forgetful to remember the details. But nonetheless, some of the 'milestones' for the past weeks include:

HELL WEEK
Monday 050410

• Driving Practical Test on 5th April: 'F'
• Chemistry Test: Quite difficult, I probably get 8/10 at most. (8/10 is considered poor for an MCQ, thanks to the bell-curve effect from the ATs)

Tuesday 060410

• IPPT: 'S' --- No, 'S' does not stand for Satisfactory; it's SILVER -.- Will definitely take again to get my GOLD.

Thursday 080410

• Maths II & Computing Test: Seriously, I got conned by my Maths tutor. I memorised all the past year questions as he said he will pick the questions there and none came out. Computing was a stunner, because the tutor set a question on the context of topics we yet to cover. He make me waste time figuring out if its a deliberate bug or not in the program codes.

In short, I never had the chance to catch my breath until Thursday evening. Zzzz.

Now that time really flies, I felt that semester made me realise that for every good, theres a bad, when you gain, you lose. Basically the world is fair.

• I get more time and freedom, but I lost the motivation and sense of urgency.
• I found my life partner, but that means I have to divert my time and resources away from what I am spending.
• I got a 4-day week, but I had to cramp all my lessons especially my tutorials.
• I have lesser modules this semester, but I have to take more subsequently.
• I had my happy days, but there are times I felt depressed too.
• I spend a lot on myself, such as braces, driving lessons, but I gained better dental health and a chance to get my liscence.
• I complain and blame why there are so many problems, but every thought made me mature and I realise the world is fair.

I am embarking on my next phase soon. I want to clear that 3 modules during my VA, but I also want to participate in NDP this year. I know I cannot have the best of both worlds, but I will try nonetheless. At least I tried.

Dad warned me not go near the waters, especially the beach or swimming pool during the lunar 9th month. Well, basically, my parents went back to M'sia for Qing Ming and my mum had her fortune read there. Apparently, the first thing the fortune teller told my mum, was a stern warning: Don't let your youngest son go near the anywhere with water, because.... I leave it to your imagination. It does give me the creeps as my dad kept reminding me over and over after they returned. I don't believe entirely in these fore-warnings, but its better to be safe than sorry right?

Anyway, TEH moved out last Friday, and now I had the whole room to myself. TEH, I told you I will dedicate an entry for you, so here it is! :D HAHAHAHA... But it does feel kinda lonely. And its not that lonely that someone who you are so used to seeing each day, leaves you temporarily. Its the kind of loneliness where you know you will probably not see each other in the same setting and that often any longer. :( TEH, are you touched? HAHAHAHA. I know you are, even thoguh you don't say, coz I know deep inside.... (*You fill in the rest of the standard statements/remarks I always make to make you cringe in disgust/paiseh*) HAHAHA. He is a nice person though we always suan and make fun of each other. Its been a great year sleeping together..... :X Oh did you know we were schoolmates/CCA-mates in secondary school and BMT Platoon/Section/Bed buddies? The best part, our beds were literally in-contact side by side! So if I won't be surprise if I roll over to him during my sleep... Hmmm, so when are you getting l*id again?

Ok, get it straight - I AM STRAIGHT. :) TEH, happy or not?  :D

Wah... DBT. I got to catch my rest le....  Till the next time....

Sigh

I pray. I hope.

I ask myself, what is it this time? Have I done anything wrong? Or was it plain careless?

Regardless of what I say, I am holding on. Even if I have to end up hurt, I admit. I deserve it.

Bottle

Finally, after so long, time to update a little stuff, before I forget them.

Yesterday was really a day that made me rather upset. I had many things in mind. I learnt that whenever someone or something angers you, you got a choice - be affected by it and be angry; or you can choose to look from another perspective, and turn that anger to something else pleasant and move on.

I went through quite a lot of thinking throughout the day. Am I wrong? Did I do something that offended you? What's wrong with me? I ask myself these questions, before I thought of the other party. But its precisely when I choose to take the blame myself before thinking further, that I feel worst.

I am just like a bottle. Whenever I am upset, I tend to deposit the unhappy memories in me, instead of spilling it, fearing I might affect you. It then accumulates until it reaches the brim, and I don't know what will happen, for it was never reached that stage.... Unless I am completely trust you or you are someone who is willing to share with me your secrets and inner thoguhts, otherwise, no one really knows what's going on in me. Sigh. Its a bad habit, and I am trying to change, but its not easy. I succeeded once, but now it seems to go back to square one.

After reading those messages, I felt a little better, for I know you are not in the best of moods, and you revealed your problems. I understood then. But why didn't you say earlier? I am not that sensitive to hints and I don't want to guess wrongly.

No matter what, I am still that same old person you know of. Nothing's going to change for the worse even if its not the desired outcome. We will face it together. Because I have told you many times - I made that decision, and I am sticking to it. :)

I am not going to reveal too much details here, and I will wait for your mood to turn better.

Anyway, I will update what's going on for the past few weeks, soon. No time and no mood for that, now.

Shall Update Again.... Later.

Okok, as usual, I am always late for my blog updates.... Sorry guys, had been too busy (and to a greater extent, lazy) to update about my life.

But before I start recollecting my memories about the past weeks, I am afraid I have to postpone again as I have to prepare for my crazy week ahead: Driving Practical Test and FE1003 test on Monday, IPPT on Tuesday, FE1007 and FE1008 tests on Thursday. As mentioned on my FB shoutout - GG (Good Game). -.-

So until the end of my tests or anytime before then, I shall continue with my crazy preparations.... :(

Singapore Biathlon 2010

Last Saturday on 130310, I took part in my first Biathlon ever - the Singapore Biathlon 2010. It was a very good experience. I wasn't alone there. There were Daniel, Samuel, Poh Long, Edwin and Meng Yean whom I didn't get to see. Jesper from my hall was there too, and I must say we were very surprised to see each other. My bib no. was 7350 and my flag off was at 0915hrs.

I didn't train for it, and it had been 3 weeks since I last jogged. The only exercise I did was swimming for up to 2km in the pool. But I must say swimming in the open waters is definitely very different from swimming in the pool. Plus there were so many others around you. I wondered how I survived the 1.5km swim and 10km run. I got overtook by many and dare not not overtake others as it was simply too crowded and I was the only few who swam breaststroke. Since I wasn't really going for timing, I took a relaxing leisure swim instead :D My goal was to survive. Haha.

 The run component was very enjoyable I msut say. I maintained a steady pace, not too fast or too slow. I was proud not to stop throughout the journey. I felt a bit stressed though as I was donning the OCS singlet and had to maintain the image. After all, I got to see 'Uncle Neo' along the way. Shall not comment. Luckily there were water and H2O booths along the way which I took advantage of, to replenish my water and salt intake, lest I faint along the way.

Overall, I completed the race in 1:39:50. I wasn't disappointed at all, and in fact, it was a good timing personally since I only went 60-70% for the race. On the other hand, Poh Long's timing was damn imba.... He was ranked within the top 40 in the men's open. Mind you, that was FAST.

Next up, National Runway Cycling followed by AHM '10! :)

2 Months

2 months can be long or short depending on your perspective. I view it as a short. And in terms of being together with someone, 2 months isn't enough to build the stable pillars for a lasting time. Yet, our journey has been short but eventful. There were definitely ups and downs,  smiles and frowns, laughter and tears. The strength of a relationship can only increased when you subject it to ordeals and obstacles. Its only then that one knows the other better and deeper.

So far, its been good, at least for me. I know what I am doing, and I am proud to be that person. I can sense that there are many more obstacles to come, and what really can overcome them is nothing but trust and communication, though I find that its always easier said than done. In the past, there is nothing we cannot talk about, but now, I choose to think carefully before I say. Its not that I don't feel comfortable, but rather, I don't wish to hurt the other party's feelings. Yet at times, there are things which I cannot package it well enough to put my point across without affecting the person negatively.

I dare say I have invested much more in this journey, more than that of the past. Because I constantly remind myself that this girl is much more deserving than any other. At least she doesn't bite. At least she doesn't numb my heart.

I am just so addicted at times, it can be quite unhealthy. It affects my focus on other priorities, it makes me irrational. But at least I am truly happy, even now. That is something that I lack and desperately need ever since that incident.

This is a special milestone to me, to us.

2 months, a happy 2 months. :)

1.5-Weeks Worth of Memories

Disclaimer: Most of this entry is about me and her. If you are not interested, just bypass this entry.

Okok.... Its been past 2 weeks since I last left off... So after the day 1 date....

It turned out that its not just a 2-part, but a 4-part series.

Sunday 280210
Day 2 was spent at Fish & Co. at The Galss House (Near PS). Had dinner with her and her friends. Her sister was there too. Not too bad, at least I made new friends. I was glad to be acknowledged. :) Accidentally stepped on her shoes while trying to open the door. Jasper paid for us. Kind of paiseh.

It was kind of awkward for me at first, but I managed to mix. So after dinner, we walked to Esplanade to have coffee there. The coffee there was good but a little too rich for my liking. Left at around 10pm and sent here and her sister home. Hahaa. They are a funny pair of siblings indeed.

Monday 010310
Day 3 was a little bitter sweet I think. Monday. It was agreed that we have dinner together. But I forgot that I had to attend Hui Shan's Birthday Party. I wanted to bring her along, but she had lessons. So anyway, I decided to accompany her for dinner after work at SP. Haha. Time to satisfy her craving, so we had *** there. Had a nice talk with her while waiting for time to past. By the way, it was recess week, so I decided to spend more time while I can. So after it was time for lessons, I left for HS's birthday party at the Home Team NS chalet near Bukit Batok. Stayed for a while and met Eugene there, together with CT guys and girls. It was a simple party but nonetheless, I think its good. We had the whole place to ourselves in the middle of the entire place!

So after the cake-cutting and eating a slice (must give face), I left hurriedly as it was kinda late. Took a cab down to Dover and luckily I made it just in time to meet her. Sent her home after that. It was not really pleasant, as she wasn't in a good mood. I can only sigh at myself, for not being able to entertain her when she is down. :S

Tuesday 020310
Day 4, a short but still happy date. We agreed to go swimming at the pool near my house. So fetched her after work again and took 100 there. Waited for more than an hour as she had work to settle. It may not be pleasant to stand there for more than an hour, but it was worth the time. Anything, as long as I can see her. I misjudged and didn't take into account the travelling time and hence the journey took an hour+. But anyway, we still managed to swim. I swam 1km in my new swimming attire and goggles and got quite used to the distance. Hopefully it helps my upcoming Singapore Biathlon.

As it was quite late, and the stall selling Oyster Omelette (her craving) closed, we settled for Mac instead. Wahaha. We shared 20pcs McNuggets and 2 burgers and plenty to talk and laugh about before heading back. At least she is satisfied. Called her after I reached home. I said somethings I shouldn't while on the bus. It was a misinterpretation on my part. I seriously thought I heard something.... But I shall not dwell on it. :( Maybe I should really pay more attention when listening. She was too tired to say anything after I explained, so I let her be till the next day.

So that was how we spent 4 days together consecutively. Although those weren't strictly considered dates, but at least I am happy. to see her. I realised what it means when its not how long you spend time together, but the quality that truely counts. :) That is something I can never find elsewhere or in the past.

Wednesday 030310
I was supposed to learn driving on wednesday, but my driving instructor last minute backed out and suggested change to night. I don't want to pay more, so I gave it a miss. Then in the morning, I got a shock when I read the SMS. Did I say aything wrongly? I hope it wasn't anything bad. Surely there's no need to go to the extent of writing an email right? I HATE receiving emails - black and white isn't going to make things any better. I received 3 before and seriously, it just made me felt worst and caused more problems. But luckily, my inbox was empty when I opened. I am glad you changed your mind. Then when I was a little too greedy to ask for day 5, I got a long message. After reading, I realised there was some truth in it. You deserve a break after all. So I decided to back off for a while. I am glad I made the right decision to stay low for a while. It made me reflect.

Thursday 040310
Supposed to go airport with her to send her friend off. But it was cancelled due to other priorities. I didn't blame her. She needs the rest. :)

Friday 050310
Had my first circuit driving today. Haha. Was an eye-opener for me.

At last we can meet again - I went to look her up after her lessons and sent her home as usual. Probably the last time to send her home on fridays.... after her lessons. It was her last friday lesson of the term.  But I am sooooo happy today. Seriously, I truly enjoyed her company as we had a very good HTHT and many things were talked through. :) And most importantly, she explained about the things that happened for the past few weeks. Felt a lot relieved to know that I am still someone important.

Saturday 060310
The busy girl got pre-occupied with her stuff again, and I had the day free. But still managed to hear her voice. I realised that recess week is comnig to and end, but I have yet to prepare everything for another start to a new term in school.

Sunday 070310
Well, its the last day of recess week. At least I managed to finish my formal lab report and studied half for my chem test the next day.

Monday 080310
Chem test was a little tricky. Encountered 2 out of 10 questions that I am not too sure what the answers are. Went out to meet her for dinner! We were so looking forward to it after so long. But to our disappointment, *** was closed there. In fact, there was practically not food available there as it was some holiday period for the students there. It was then I realised how important food is to her. Lots of rantings and whatnot. It was then that I saw the ultra-grouchy side of her. Luckily I didn't end up as the victim. :P So we ended settling down at the study area doing nothing but waiting for time to pass for her lesson to start. While waiting, I used my laptop to do some work and watch my favourite serial show. :) She sent a message, asking me to head to Tiong Bahru Plazza to reserve the food for her in case we don't make it on time for the last order. I just prayed nothing happens to her on the way here since she was on an empty stomach since lunch.Come to think of it, I got pretty guilty. I reached at 2100hrs, was told that the last order was 2145hrs, and by the time I started queueing again at 2120hrs, the things she want got sold out. And the best part, 2 naidnis in front of me were the ones who ordered it. -.- She said she dun want the alternative, so I left reluctantly and waited for her at the control station. Then we had a change of plans. Shall go to Paya Lebar instead, since it would be more convenient. Met her on the train and its where we enjoyed each other's company. I am glad she was bubblier and happier even though I know her stomach is still empty. So as we walked there, it was another pleasant walk with lots of topics to talk about and laughter to accompany. We had a pleasant surprise to see that *** was still opened after 10pm! So we went in, and to our delight, there were plenty of the things she wanted there. Haha. I guess I kept my word after all - 'I made sure she got what she wanted.' :) So we sat down happily tucking in and she finished her share so quickly. And so that's when my cheeks were so sore after all the smiling, grinning and laughing.

Walked her home and I must say it was very very heart warming to be able to share so much with someone.  Was basically smiling even as I walked back to the bus-stop home...

Tuesday 090310
Well, after school, I went to meet her again to walk her home. This time I didn't wait too long. Oh I got my new watch today too. Its those cheapo casio watch those recruit always wear. Kinda relieved after finishing so many tasks at hand. My formal lab report, tests, assignments, etc. She finished her assignments and work has been better this week too. I gues that's why our moods are better and can truly enjoy the time together. At least she is walking home with the sun still shining after so many late night returns.

Wednesday 100310
Today, had my second circuit lesson. Made some mistakes but overall, I think I improved from where I left off. After all, better making those mistakes now than on the test date right? Now after typing so much, its time to head back to hall to prepare for tmr's school.

Till the next time!

End of Recess Week

Okok. I know I have not been posting entries for some time. Give me some time to write up. I am kinda lazy for now. Still trying the savour my every moment of recess week. :) Will update again real soon.

Weekend Date Day 1

Day 1 of of weekend date ended happily just hours ago on Saturday. At last someone is much more cheerful and not so easily irritated or tired. I am gald that things always turn out better eventually. Let's keep it this way. :)

First thing in the morning got an SMS. Its always a nice feeling when you wake up with a message to greet you or at least say something nice. Especially if it comes from someone special. Well, I was semi-conscious as I replied. Woke up, replied, slept. Repeated many times. In the end, I got all confused and nearly got a 'dressing-down.' Heh.

Then went to help my dad do some grocery shopping at NTUC Fairprice. Went off to visit my dentist for the usual appointment. This time, its lime green and baby blue. At least it looks nice. :) More importantly, I am relieved that my teeth is becoming neater by the days. Its been 3 months plus and there has been a significant improvement to the alignment. I guess its just worth the money for a neater set of teeth to brush and show off. Ha! But I am not vain la. The motivation came after I had my decayed wisdom extracted, together with the other 3 yet-to-decay ones. ITs either now or never anyway.

Then on the way back, got another SMS to buy rubber band for the her hair. I cannot believe I actually spent half-an-hour in total staring and choosing which rubber bands best suit her. In the end, I bought 6 - 2 from the convenience store at Boon Keng and 4 from 'Helen' at White Sands. Also, this time I made sure I passed her the body scrub she requested.

Went to Pasir Ris Park for her class gathering. BBQ for less than 15 people? Well, at least I learnt more about how to start a BBQ fire. And it was always when I realsied she is an 'Iron-Fan Princess!' Haha. I won't say I blended well into the crowd, but at least I talked to some of them.

Sent her home after her friend's bf dropped us at Pasir Ris MRT. And that was when she was back to her usual bubbly self. Always enjoyed her company back, no matter how short or long it was.

And its less than 14 hours before we meet again! :)

一切

陈伟联 - <<我们>>

拥有了 全世界
可是你 却看不见。。。

失去了 全世界
还有你 在我身边。。。


我想我对感情的执着，只能以"做好本份"来形容。我不是不认真，只是很多事情我已学会看得开了。我也知道发脾气只会让事情复杂化。很多时候，我总是忍耐，选择包容一个人的长短之处。经历过不少的风风雨雨之后，我也知道知己的强弱之处。但毕竟我很早之前也受到的伤害。至今，我总是期待你那温暖的拥抱，因为那小小的举动就是我的‘情药’。

人也有时会累。不过我不能用历史来找借口，用别人来衡量另一个人。那对她是很不公平的。所以当我认定了她，往往我会把她排在前面。就算得牺牲一些还算值得。因为我非常在意，也同时害怕失去。但我的行动似乎不怎么感动了她，或者应该说是我会引起一些些误会。我希望我没给她太大的压力。我承认手法或许不太妥当，但我可是发自内心地想关心她，想表示一下。或许我自己也很想得到同样的待遇吧。。。我不是怪或怨她，因为我的心思不是一两个月就能彻底了解。我想，‘适应’还是最重要的。

一不小心跌倒了，我提醒知己别太大意，有时候停一停脚步，欣赏周围的一切也不错。对于人生这旅程，我并不要求一切都一路顺风，或如愿以偿。我要求的是，能待在我的家人与爱人的身旁，陪伴他们，我就心满意足了。

人本来就是贪心。有谁不想得到荣华富贵，不愁吃，穿，住，用? 但现实就是残酷。我们所要的一切，是不可能全得到的。


因为得到一样，就得失去另一样。这就是我的座右铭。

3rd Entry of the Day.

This entry is meant for someone to read, because I know that person will be reading it.

I knew that you will respond when I did that. If you hadn't blocked me from your wall, I won't disable too. 你做初一，我做十五。

If the 5 years really made you belittle me, then so be it. I didn't wanted it any nastier. I will nonetheless wish you all the best.

R.I.P. PPDAR

Recap of the Week

Friday

Last day of the week. Went to meet her again. Exchanged sulks. Coz we were both stubborn, but I guess its because we have different ways of expressing that we care. Then we met again at night to send her home. I am glad that I can see her. That's all.

Saturday

CNY eve. Spent the day tidying up my house after the reunion lunch. Drank 2 cans of beer but luckyily no allergic reaction, just got high somehow. Well, I shall leave the details out la.

Sent lots of SMSes to her. :) And somehow we got the V-day date planned over it. Then I went to my uncle's house for steamboat dinner. Kinda awkward coz we have nothing much to talk about. Came home less than an hour before midnight to celebrate CNY.

Sunday

ITs CNY and V-DAy at the same time! Well, its double celebration for me. :P Went out for a movie outing to watch "72 Tenants of Prosperity." Not bad for a comedy. Then, brought her back for dinner with my family. Afterwhich, it was part 2 of the V-day celebration :) I am sure we enjoyed the romantic night. Went home after midnight. I was tired, but happy for a well-spent day.

Monday

My second day of CNY was spent at my uncle's house again collecting Angpaos. But this time, I brought her along and I am gald she blended in very well, especially with the kids. Haha. She got more popular with them with than me la. :S

We left at around 6pm and sent her home. Had a small tiff again, but it got resolved eventually. Bought Bubble Tea at HM (I was surprised it was actually open) and sent her home thereafter.

Tuesday

Its a gazetted public holiday. So I spent the day at home doing nothing productive. My father's side uncle came with his wife and 2 kids to visit though. Haha. The 2 lil cuteys were fighting over using the com for FACEBOOK. Kids these days are indeed more tech-savvy than us when we were their age. Took lots of photo of them too. Haha.

Wednesday

I don't have lessons today, so I need not travel back to hall last night. Woke up late. Had brunch and went swimming. Came back to prepare my bag and went to meet her at Raffles City Shopping Centre to recce for her Crumpler bag. Well, I am glad I arrived earlier to locate the shop lest gwe got lost and waste time finding our way. She came around 1730hrs from The Singapore Flyer. Went into the shop but the colour she wanted wasn't available, so the promoter called the other branch at wheelock to reserve the last set for her. Head over to Suntec City where she got me my wallet. I am glad that at last I can discard the old and torn wallet. And along with it went the memories... :) Had dinner at Suntec City's Subway where she helped me with the transfer of my stuff. Then it was off to Wheelock Place by bus. After getting her bag, it was time to send her home after a long day and night. Really hoped she liked it and take good care of the bag, just like how I will take care of the wallet. Then it was back to hostel after I sent her home. Chionged for my tutorials the next day till late.

Thursday

School as usual. I missed the morning lecture as I was too tired and wanted to do my tutorials. Computing was simply a waste of time. IT was supposedly a 2-hour tutorial with hands-on. The instructor NEVER GO THROUGH A SINGLE QUESTION. First lesson, he went through very fast. Second lesson, he skipped 1 or two simple questions, Third lesson, he skipped all the easy questions. Fourth lesson, he skipped half, of which most are not easy. Fifth lesson, he spoke for 15 mins only. Today, he spent just 5 minutes talking about how important next week's test is, the format and email him if we did not take the test.... Wait. Did he even tell us his email or name?! Zzzz...

Friday

Didn't attend the morning lectures again. Reasons: Computing lessons for this week is cancelled as the lecturer will only turn up next week, and I didn't want to wake up early just to attend a 50mins Chemistry lecture and return to hall for a 2 hours break. Well at least I used the time and comfort of my room to read through the lecture notes. :) Drank coffee in the morning and got super alert.

Couldn't concentrateon my revision  due to the side effects of the caffeine. Sigh :S

It wasn't a good day (night) for me. I did something(s) wrong again. First was the photo, then the SMS. Sometimes I wonder if history enjoys repeating itself, or was it simply my bad habit. :( It happened to my ex, and now, I cannot help but cringe and feel despaired at myself for not being sensitive and rationale enough to know what is the right thing to do at the right time. I spent the time, effort and money to make something, hoping to make things better but it turned out otherwise. Am I really wrong to do something to make you or at least myself smile?

Then the SMS. It boils down to my insensitivity. Sigh. I interpretted the message wrongly, and I didn't realise how tired a day she had. I must admit, this time, it was my fault. I guess I am too selfish? Think only about myself. And that is why it just lowers my confidence, because it happened to me EXACTLY...

I don't wish to write on.

难过

我难过。

因为我做不到。
因为我不体贴。
因为我没资格。
因为我伤害你。

Long Holidays! :)

Its going to be Friday tomorrow! Let's see what I am up to for the past few days...

Monday was just another simple day. Lectures, tutorials, surf com, sleep.

Tuesday is one of the days I look forward to. Its like another Friday, for I usually head home after my last lesson, since I don't have lessons the next day. I enjoy meeting up with her and having my dinner at home. Nothing beats home-cooked food. As usual, it was night full of smiles and laughter. :)

Wednesday, as mentioned is my off-day. I had my driving lessons in the early afternoon at 1230hrs this time. The driving instructor is really pissing me off this time. Grr. So impatient and blames me for mistakes he made. But I shall make it a point not to swear or cuss on my own blog. I am seriously considering a switch of driving instructor. Then I went home to grab my bag and head off to Hougang Mall to run an errand for her again :). Then it was back to my hostel to get cracking for my maths test the next day (today). I reached in the early evening, narrowly missing the peak hours period. Got dragged to attend the fun-fair at my hall since I bought the coupons already. Bought many sticks of fishballs and 8 cans of pepsi. I wonder how me and Teh are going to finish them anytime soon. Had the luxury of having my therapy today when I am not supposed to. Thanks for compromising ;)

As for today, well... I skipped the FE1002 lecture in the morning as I wanted to use the time to prepare for my maths test later. Overall, the maths test was easier than I thought though I made a careless mistake in it. I was glad that I prepared for it, and of course with Teh's help. Then it was lunch. I made 2 new friends with Bala's friends. Had lunch with them and as usual, Bala became the target for teasing. By the time, my afternoon lessons were over, I headed back hall, exhausted from the fatigue due to insufficient sleep and cramping of info in my mind. Basically, I was overloaded. Took a short nap and headed for my FE1002 make-up lecture which I was kind of relucant to attend. It was in the evening and I just had so much inertia in me to force myself to walk 20 mins to attend an hour's lecture. Economically, it didn't seem to make sense since the 100 mins (60 mins of lesson + 40 mins of travelling time in total) could be better diverted elsewhere. Plus I never understood what this particular AT lecturer is talking about for the past 2 weeks. But I told myself that whether I learn something out of it, I shall just sit there and listen. Even if its just 1 thing I understood, its one less thing to wonder how to solve in the exams. Plus, I'd probably be sleeping or doing something unproductive anyway. Time to really stop skipping lectures (unless I had something that is really more important to do.

As for the subsequent days, I am just so looking forward to them. Its CNY this Sunday and Monday. That means CNY eve falls on Saturday and there will be a compensated holiday on Tuesday. So effectively, its a 2 day week for me the following week! :) Plus its Valentine's Day this Sunday. I am sure it will be an eventful long holidays for me. Shall really take my time and slow my pace as I enjoy every moment of the 5 days worth of break.

Today is the day to not have my therapy. After all, we are meeting again tomorrow! Its also the day we collect our rings. :) I shall just count down and also catch my sleep early tonight. Till the next time!

Happy

Wow wow. So much have happened these few days. Time for some recap...

Ok, Thursday was antoher outing day I guess. After school went to MaArina Square to meet up again. Coz she had dry throat, so I brought her a bottle of honey which I prepared in school. I didn't had a proper bottle, so I had to improvise with my own NTU bottle. So it turned out that I went to fidn her after my dinner and after she had her dinner with her colleagues at Swensen's.

Walked around, look look see see... And headed for Suntec City instead. The conversation never stopped and I was glad that the time was short but well-spent. We dropped into Harvey Norman and that's where we decided to get that Samsung Camera ST500 which was supposed to be her V-day gift. Kinda worth it as it allows self-portrait with its dual-screen which lets you see what you are taking even with the camera lens facing you! :) I am just glad that she got what she wanted. Sent her home after that again. This time, it was another achievement unlocked! :) Kind of 'intoxicating' I must admit. :):):) After we parted, I realised I forgot to pass her the bottles of honey, guilin gao and mentoes. And it was when I called her just as she wanted to call me. Haha. Telepathy I guess. So I walked back to pass them to her before heading back again.

The best part isn't over - while I had to take the train back to NTU, it was a lonely journey and I yearned for that phone call and tada... my phone rang! So I had here company over the phone almost throughout the long way to my hostel.

I have always believed in 'what goes around comes around.' And even though some of you might think I am crazy to spend so much time and money into this relationship, I beg to defer. There are just some things you will never understand...

As for Friday, it was another fetching session. Same place - SP @ dover. After my lessons, I made my way home to bring back the 2 laptops before making my way to find her again. Along the way, I met Steven, my close friend back in OCS. Caught up with each others' lives and I am glad that he is maintaining his long relationship with his gf. I am sure she will be his one and only. I was so happy for them. Anyway, When I reached SP eventually, I was glad to have taken the lift - a route I don't usually take. Reason being, I was actually early, but I didn't expect her to be released even earlier, and so just as I was about to exit from the lift, in she came. Haha. Coincidence I guess. Shall not dwell too much on the details - which are kind of repetitive. I am sure those who read my entries often would have expected what I am going to say. All I can say is that it was repeat of what happened the day before - the same achievement! :) But it was much better, I guess... :)

As for yesterday - 060210, Saturday. It will be a day I will always remember.

It was the day I brought my special one home to meet the folks. :) But before that, I fetched her from her home to Bugis to have lunch, shopped for my V-day gift, before heading for PS to walk around. We had a very insightful HTHT there while waiting for her queue to collect her repaired handphone. Then we went around in search of her handbag. Given the limited time we had and the limited choices available, we left PS without her handbag. I guess next time bah...

She accompanied me to my dental clinic where I had to fix my braces every 3-weeks. That's where she had a chance to meet my dentist whom always couldn't figure out how I chose my colours for the rubber bands each time. Well, she is the answer. ;) It was really funny to have her around, to entertain my dentist and her assistants.

The next destination was my home. :) In short, I can safely say that my parents do favour her pretty much, even though her first time there. There were too many dishes whipped but too few people around to finish it. Kinda wasteful thinking of it. Both my brothers were out. Watched TV together and she got a chance to flip through my photos when I was much younger. Even I myself cannot resist but be amused at how different I was back then... So I sent her home after 2130hrs and bade goodbye.

It seems like everything will be different after today, and I am sure things will stabilize. Its time to invest my time in my studies too. Next Thursday will be my first test of the semester. Afterwhich, its the Snigapore Biathlon 2010, IPPT followed by my driving practical test. So much to do, so little time... :S But at least I am happy. :D

Too 'Dreamy' to be True...

Am I in my dreamland just a couple of hours ago or what?

I am trying to sleep but cannot. Because I am too happy. At last I have managed to move things to a more comfortable level. The therapy earlier (yesterday night) was one of the best ever. Yup, it was a very good HTHT and we are at last stepping deeper into each other's world.

To be honest, for the past week, I had this feeling that this day will arrive, and I am glad that it did. It all started from an SMS in the afternoon.... ;)

Yup, so things are definitely set for the better. But I will always bear in mind - never assume, never be complacent and never take things for granted.

Sometimes it just felt too good to be true. But ironically, now I know I am not dreaming after all. :)

Bliss

Disclaimer: Please discontinue reading if you are not interested to find out about my personal life and my relationship stories. I am not trying to flaunt. Thank you.

I guess the best word to describe our outing on Saturday is 'Bliss.'

It was our 1st official date after we got together. The first program of the day was to collect our laptops at AMK industrial estate. I got a direct bus - 45, while she had to transfer from 24 to 45. Along the way, we caught up with each other's life again, though it was less than 12 hours since we last saw each other. :) I am glad we always have so much to talk about. In the lift, something embarassing happened which made me laugh and laugh.... Shan't disclose lest I get smacked. The laptops were indeed small and lighter than what I thought. It costs $599, so for that price, I guess its not too bad. In total, we brought back 3 laptops - 1 for her, 1 for her friend and 1 for myself. So although we agreed to part after collecting our stuff, I decided to send her home instead seeing that it won't be easy for her to carry 2 big bags alone.

So after said good bye near her home, I went home to do my stuff and wait for the part 2 of our date. She went to meet her friend to catch up and pass her the laptop.

I told her I will meet her at PS at 1730hrs to catch 'The Spy Next Door'. I reached earlier there earlier and waited outside Agnes B, as arranged. Then I received an SMS that she had a 'relapse' of her same old problem again. :( Kind of worried and angry at the same time. So I tried to trick her into thinking that I was disappointed and upset about it. But deep inside, I was worried sick and wondering what I should do to alleviate the problem. She told me the 'remedy' and hence I went looking around for it. It was 2 chicken sticks from 'Hunky Tori'. ;) So when she came eventually, I couldn't hide that worried me and let eat and tried to find out if she was all right. I am glad it worked and I was relieved that she was fine. So along the way, I kept teasing her and she kept making me laugh and laugh. We went to the Samsung shop to repair her phone and while waiting, that's when I started knowing more about her and why she does certain things. Ifind it meaningful and I am just glad that after explaining about those issues, at least I can understand her better and avoid any misunderstandings. That's why its soooooo important to communicate. So while she was being served at the counter, her craving came back and I left to get more food for her again. Haha. I am just glad to invest that little amount of effort in exchange for that mega-watt smile.

We were nearly late for the show, but things went smoothly. It was an action comedy by Jackie Chan, but its really funny and entertaining. Watching his movies in the cinema is definitely different from watching it from home. Although it was a 93 minutes show, somehow it felt longer than that. But the best takeaway, nonetheless is the company. Its really wonderful to have someone you really feel attached to, seating next to you and holding your hands, leaning against you and so on. :) I was also surprised at how she can predict what will happen next without reading the sypnosis.

So after movie, it was time to feel our stomachs. Mine especially. Its kind of irritating to find every storeys' toilets to be undergoing washing in the whole building. Well, at least only one side of the level was washed, so we can use the other. So anyway, we settled for a simple foodcourt after that. I wasn't too into fast food anyway and most other restaurants were closing at that time. Once again, we had a lot to talk and laugh about over food. That is why our dates are always so enjoyable. I cannot imagine if one day she just don't talk as much. :S I couldn't finish my food somehow, probably because I was exercising my stomach with all that laughter.

It was rather late by the time we finished our meal and it was time to send her home. Wanted to take bus, but the entire road was so jammed with traffic due to road closures in celebration of Thaipusam. -.- Had to take the train back instead.

There wasn't a moment of silence throughout the journey and how I wished we could walk a little longer. But that's life isn't it? When you enjoy something, it never lasts. When we reached her doorstep, I wasn't 'willing to part' and she giggled.... Hahaha. :P

That sums up my wonderful day. Really looking forward to the subsequent outings and time together. Like what we always say, we will make it work and last. :)

Sore Eyes, Santa Claus and The Black Book

Thursday (280110):
I went for the swim trial at Jurong SAFRA. Left for it from hall at around 1845hrs after dinner with Teh. I found the pool easily after walking there from the interchange. It was a 30 laps swim under 40mins. Thats 1.5km in any style by the way.I totally regret not wearing my googles. Goodness. The moment I went in, I can hardly see a thing though its lited, plus the water isn't that clean. Etiher there is too much chlorine or too much dirt/germs/particles in it.

So anyway, I have never attempted such a long distance. I do sprints most of the time. I was a little overconfident and I realised my breast-stroke was really slow... My arm muscles were aching from the work-out the day before. Couple that with insufficient sleep, and I swam in the night. I am a morning person, so I am physically primed in the morning.  Nonetheless, I tried my best. At first I thought I was not going to make it for the timing. But eventually, I completed it in 38:15. Phew~  Looks like I really need to improve my swimming....

But its not the end. When I exited the pool, I can hardly open my eyes. I knew that's it - My eyes are red again, and its really bad. Tears keep pouring out... Its worst than being exposed to tear-gas... Plus after the long and continuous swim, my salt level dropped quite a lot, so I couldn't even walk straight. I kept flushing my eyes with water but it didn't really help. Basically, I closed my eyes for more than half the journey back to hall. I even walk with my eyes closed! Luckily there weren't many people on the bus lest they think I have heard some grave news or something. Well, at least I made it back alive. The therapy that night made me a 'Santa Claus'. Haha. Its making laugh just by recalling about the difference between an ATM and a Santa Claus.

Friday (290110):
I shall skip the boring day event. Shall jump straight to what happened after school. So today is the first day of school for somebody, and I decided to meet her after work and do a few errands for her as well. So as usual, I took the train to TP MRT and this time, I shall follow the directions she gave. Indeed, I was led to the same location! :) Well, at least I know which lift you were referring to now. I almost couldn't recognise her from afar. She looked different with her hair tied up. But I was still delighted to see her. Took the train with her after she passed me a bag containing some stuff. Then I dropped off at Outram to head for Hougang. Returned the books for her lest she pay a fine for an overdue book. Went shopping for some stuff too. Was asked to buy a earphone sponge. Turned out I bought the wrong stuff eventually... (Shall talk about it later). Then went to Sports Link to invest in my swimming googles, swim float, knee guard and ankle weights. Argh... $120++!!! All for the sake of the upcoming Singapore Biathlon. So I head home after that and wait for time to past for the next task.....

Left my home at around 2045hrs to meet her again... This time,  had to travel to Dover. SP to be exact to pick her up again. :) Brought along the bag of stuff, and got her a drink and a packet of biscuits (which was not consumed :( Haha.) Went all the way to her lesson venue to look for her. Nearly lost my way but luckily there were signs. But the funny part was after she came out with her friend, we could not find the way back! So paiseh la.... No sense of direction. But I am glad there were people around to ask for directions, so we manged to return to Dover MRT. Along the way, had a good talk. Though tired, she still entertained me with the stories and everything. And that's when I showed her the stuff I bought and she told me its not the correct one :S So I shall redeem myself by getting her the correct one tomorrow. As much as I do feel a little disappointed about myself and somewhat sore from some issues earlier, I think I realised how fortunate I am that I am given so many chances and I really appreciate everything about her.

As we headed back after alighting from the MRT, we met her friend. The journey back was refreshing (always something new to talk about) and always made it so worthwhile to make the effort to send her home. I guess I have reclaimed the sense of being appreciated that was lost for quite some time.

Before we parted, I unlocked another achievement! Heh. Shall not divuldge anything. But unfortunately, the paper bag that contained her stuff had a hole due to the condensation of water around the drink I bought for her :( Felt so guilty after that.

Sent her an SMS after I left, which I hope will make her smile and forget the unhappiness. :P

So for today, I got into the Black Book 3 + 1 times today le.... 1 for losing my way, 1 for breaking the bag, 1 for buying the wrong earphone sponge. The last one was for being too quiet over the phone. Hahahaha. But I gave her 3 reasons to forgive me too! ;) The last one... I didn't tell her, but I am sure its valid too.

Soooooo looking forward to the next day! We are meeting up to collect our laptops and another outing. Shall update again soon!

Ponders

Another enjoyable therapy last night. Things are going well so far. :)

Actually I am not as good as you think and I don't really know how to take care of people; I am just putting in effort and trying my best to put myself in others' shoes. Sometimes, I tend to neglect when I am not in the mood and think of myself. But I will definitely try to change.

Have been adapting to school well, since I got a 4 Days per week schedule. Well, I applied for electives but didn't get any, so I don't really know if its for the better now that I have lesser topics to study. Thankfully, I might be able to take up some electives this coming holidays. ;)

CNY is coming, and so is V-day. In the past, I tend to stress-up when such occassions arrive as I have to crack my brains to think of something different each time. You know... I must 'meet up to the expectations'. That was when I was with my ex. I am glad that as of now, I don't really face such an instance. Not that I no need to put in effort to be creative, but I think we know each other well enough - its not how much it costs or how creative you are... Its really the thought that counts. The least anyone can do is to appreciate that little effort and say thank you, or give a smile. Well, enough of that....

So looking forward to this semester and the coming holidays! Looking forward to meeting my buddies too! :)

Meeting you

Though it was only a short duration, and though you like to bicker (in a non-hostile manner of course), I am glad I made the right decision to head down to look for you. Haha... Its always different when I see you in person versus hearing you over the phone. I feel contended that you don't find me too 'sticky' or gotton sick of me yet. :) I just want to see you. That's all.

So today after lesson, I went to TP MRT and her workplace to find her. Not too long a wait... Took 70 to Paya Lebar. Its such a coincidence that the place you are going is sooooo near to my home. :) Though you rejected my second 'offer', I thought that since its only a short while and its within walking distance, I shall send you home after...

Went back and began pondering what you needed.... And I came up with a simple solution - filling your stomach, at least until dinner. My guess was that you will be famished after you are done. So I prepared a strictly-no-lactose Milo for you. :D Hope you liked it although you didn't finish it eventually. And I was VERY LUCKY to SMS you informing that I was there waiting, lest you left without me and having me wait in vain for hours. I was rather surprised that I can actually wait there for more than an hour. It was totally worth it, no matter what. Because I know even if I didn't send you home, I would most likely use that time to laze around or do something unproductive.

Yup, so it was in all a good night spent. Tired as I might be, you  never fail to brighten up my dull day. :)

Missing You

Really missing someone badly right now... :( And I cannot wait for coming saturday!

Absence does make the heart grow fonder. Its probably the first time after so long, that we are not having our daily therapy.

Hanging Out

Went around knowing new friends yesterday.

She brought me to Pasir Ris Downtown East to attend a birthday party with her. So apparently, the birthday girl is a 'civilian PTI' at Tekong. Well, at least I met someone whom I was suppposed to know: Jacky, one of the new clerks in my camp. It wasn't as awkward as what I imagined and she didn't neglect me either :) Her friends were also friendly and there wasn't a big crowd.

Met her at the same place - TP station after school. Brought along some cookies, chocolates and a drink just in case. So basically I travelled from one corner of Singapore to the other... At least there was company. Went walking around White Sands and browsed for stuff. Took 354, walked in and was introduced around le. Watched TV, eat, talk, played with iPod Touch and then it was cake cutting. Haha. So we left around 10pm after her favourite show ended.

It was only after walking out to the bus-stop that something went missing, and luckily we hadn't board the bus. Went back, take it for her and sent her home. :) The journey was long, but it was comforting to have her seating next to me. Lesson learnt: ask before taking photos =P

As for today, nothing much for me, except that I woke up at 2pm and played for a while... till now.

1 Week

Its been a week since we got together. Met up twice so far, and we had our fair share of ups and downs already. Its kind of challenging to maintain this relationship since we are currently preoccupied with our own stuff.

I must say it wasn't easy on my side, but I know we can make it work, as you said, as long as we work together :) After all, if we can tide over this period of time and stabilize, I am sure it will nothing will stand in our way. I do blame myself for being too quiet, too reserved. But that is my nature. I just prefer to use actions, and not just talk. I am doing all I can to work things out, and hopefully, you will be satisfied. Some may ask, why change for someone? Is it worth it? Well, to me, to change for someone is an indication that you are willing to put in some effort. As long as the demand is reasonable and in return, why not? All I want is some appreciation. That's all.

So far, the silence have dragged on many times, and I know its because you are just too tired to talk and want someone to cheer you up. I hope I didn't disappoint you. Since the day you acknowledged it, I have told myself that things will always turn out better eventually. And so far, I know you are working hard too. *Pat**Pat* :)

Sometimes, all I ask is for you to listen a little more to me. =/

I guess maturity, patience, communication and trust are the keys to sustain this type of relationship. So far, we are doing fine. And I still think of you. :)

Words...

Week 2 started! Actually, its the second day of the second week in school.

So far, my schedule has been great. Only 16 AUs. I justhope I can get my elective, but even if I cannot get, at least I know I can concentrate on my subjects better.

Had a mixture of thoughts...I am starting to think a lot again. I mean, I expected myself to feel a little pressured, and I know I had to face those comments. I just want to say to those people: if you don't understand, don't comment. I am easily affected by words, and sometimes, it can hurt quite badly. I have just turned optimistic, and I want to keep it that way.

Does being too nice and forgiving to others make one's own life miserable? I really hope not.

No, nothing went wrong, its just that there's a lot of thoughts that rushed into my mind as we spoke... I stepped on a landmine, which I really didn't intend to. :(

And as I typed this, I received an SMS which brought smiles to me again.

I won't give up either.

Its Official!!! :):):)

Okok, probably most of those who are reading this are interested to know who she is.

Its not that I don't want to say, or I find it embarassing to reveal. But its only the first day we got together. Taking things slowly.... Its only a matter of time you guys know.

Just want to remember today is the first step to a whole new journey. And I want to thank all my friends who were concerned and those who sent their well-wishes. You guys are the best. :)

Bad Day... Not

Today I had to my several trips round the island.

First off, my driving lesson 9 in the morning at 1030hrs - 1200hrs ($39). I think I didn't sleep enough. My skills dipped somewhat and I couldn't concentrate as well. In short, it wasn't a smooth journey. I think I might have gotton into an accident had I been less careful.

After lesson, went to renew my PDL. It was to expire on 310310, but my dreaded Practical Test is on 050410. -_-' No choice. Antoher $25 flew out of my pocket. (I am recording all the costs to remind myself about how much I have been spending and let you know how costly it gets).

I was supposed to head back camp today to settle some admin issues. Darn the T-loan voucher. I called Joel to try settle the issue, but didn't work out. Called this guy called Chan Wei Wen, also no joy as he is not in camp till night. Zzz.. Must wait till tonightfor the news. Luckily 45 goes to an MRT station, where I can transfer to my next location....

HTA. Took the train from Tanah Merah to CCK. As the train approaches Jurong East, where I had to transfer to the NS line, the NS train closed its door the moment those on the EW train stepped out and dashed towards it. Super inconsiderate. Usually the NS train will wait for passengers who arrived by train on the E/W train to transfer before departing, but I don't know why this particular train driver enjoy taunting us commuters to complain to the papers. #%^%&* But never mind, I shall not dwell on it too much.

Reached CCK and took 172 there. I looked like a lost child wandering around finding my way. I counted 12 stops to my destination and the journey was still ok. Took about 15 minutes before alighting at the bus-stop. Walked in, and took out my map. Totally lost la. Everywhere inside the building looks like a school - full of classrooms. So I tried to orienatate myself using the 'map'. Asked around for directions. When I saw the lockers, I started to look for the number. I was surprised to see the key inserted already, and the locker empty. My first thought was I was in the wrong place, since the instructions were clear and the one who gave me the instructions has always been very accurate and meticulous, so it cannot be wrong. So desperately, I used the key to test out all the lockers one by one. As I did it, I looked around to make sure no one was looking and no cameras was aiming at me. I AM NOT A THIEF BY THE WAY, although I behaved like one. I was running an errand to help someone get the things left in the locker. I cannot help but laugh as I recall, what if I was called out by someone there? The person must be thinking in his head: "This thief must be very bold... Of all places to 'commit such act', must commit within Police home ground..." I guess the fact that no one discovered me, proved that the most dangerous place is also the safest place indeed.

Anyway, I tried all the lockers but still cannot open a single one. I wanted to call/sms, but I thought it will be a bad time to do so, since the person wpuld most probably be very busy and I didn't want to add on to the pile of work. As I thoguht, 5 minutes passed and I tried to confirm my location. The map wasn't very clear to me, but I didn't want to blame others. I guess I am not good at orientating myself, that's all. Haiz. Not to waste time, I decided to just sms. Got a call back, and almost got screamed at. So sorry. I am not good at words, and I don't want to add on to your problem. So the outcome was, I decided to try once more and find the locker no matter what. :) It was the second time I inserted the key one by one and still no go. At that time, I was rather sure I was at the wrong place...

Thanks to the friendly cleaner auntie, she told me that actually there was another row of lockers just further down the corridor! Haiz. Had I explored a bit more, had I calmed myself down, I think I would have found the lockers long ago.... :( So I dropped another SMS and took out the stuff needed. At last, things are settled. Phew.

Started to drizzle, but at least I made my way out safely. I took the wrong direction when I reached CCK MRT station. Zzzz... U-turned at Bukit Batok headed back home via NS and CC line.

After I reached home, I received several SMS, and I cannot help but keep smiling. You chased the stormy clouds away. =D

Lessons Learnt:
Sleep enough before driving lesson.
Always account for stores. Don't let one dumb 'supervising' waistband spoil your day.
Call the other party to check if the other party will be in camp.
Don't overestimate my capabilities/intelligence, don't underestimate others.
I need to calm down when stressed.
Be confident. ASK.
When you know you had a bad day, tell yourself, you will make it through.
Acknowledge your mistakes and learn from it. Don't run away and pretend.

Yesterday (120110)

Yesterday...

Been out again after school. It was raining cats and dogs, but didn't bothered. Wednesdays are my free days, so I decided to head home. But before that, I went to meet my friends for dinner at Tampines Mall. Well, Boon Lay to Tampines may be a long journey, but its always worth the journey.

Spent quite some time at G2000 after getting a 'SHOUT-OUT' over the phone. Hahaha. Kidding. When I was there, I was totally stunned (in the pleasant manner of course) by what I saw. ;) So there I was in my shorts and slippers, while the other was in formal. Hmm... 'Exchange of bodies'? (Not meant for you to understand)

Then the others came, and and we settled for the food court upstairs. Got a glimpse of how the tiger got suaned and bullied by us. Haha. So funny la... 

After dinner, we went to shop around Tampines Mall and Tampines One for some accessories. In between, we had coffee at The Coffee Club. More laughter and talking...

Eventually, we bade farewell, and it was the same accompanied journey back.

Had my usual therapy at night and I decided to get myself a new MSI laptop. Its much smaller and portable, ideal for bringing around when I need it. Thanks for the help! Haha, I think you can be their promotor already.


Achievement(s) unlocked: Carry bag, Personal Assistant, Walk home.

LOL.

Outing Before School

This entry is meant for yesterday. Anyway, I spent my Sunday very meaningfully. Been out the whole afternoon and late morning to meet up again. It was actually meant to be dinner, but changed to lunch and then it became a lunch-shopping-and- chill-out session. So anyway, I managed to wake up in time, and went out of house after telling my parents I am not having lunch at home. I had ulcers in my mouth and I had sore throat since several days back. This morning my parents went to queue for number at the clinic but I told them that I won't be seeing, as I am already heading out to meet someone.

So left my house at around 1030hrs, and I thought I would be late. Reached Parkway Parade 20 minutes early, so I shopped around till TC arrived. TC told me to meet at Banquet for lunch, and at first I thought it was kind of weird till I realised that actually, the problem was that the other restaurants, hawker centres were rather crowded since it was a Sunday. TC was tired after the tuition session, and of course the lack of sleep as usual. So we had a quick bite though we weren't exactly hungry. TC's next student called to postpone the tuition to 5pm in the afternoon, so we had a much longer time together. Got a surprise gift from TC...

Pen wrapped in thread.

Appreciate the effort and time you spent on it very much, although... ;) Thanks :)


Then we shopped around for printer, hard disks, etc. Basically computer accessories. Didn't managed to find the ideal stuff, so went over to Popular instead to shop for some stationary and wrapping plastic. We spent a good 1 hour plus there I think. TC got so bored that we almost bought colouring books and colour pencils to kill time! Haha. So silly of us right?

So the next destination was Marine Parade CC, where we chilled over books and had drinks and a brownie at Cafe Gallilee within the library there. Spend nearly 2 hours, where eventually TC knocked out on the table. Had a good talk and I was rather happy to receive my second surprise! A handphone chain! Something as simple as this is enough to brighten my day... :)

Cute Little Doggy with Bone

So we left the place at around 1645hrs, so TC can make it on time for the second student of the day. Just want to say, I enjoyed myself, although it was simple. Remember the running regime!

Time to Back-Date

Been some time since I last posted a proper entry.

So far for my driving, I have clocked 8 lessons in total, inclusive of today's. In fact, I had 4 lessons this week! Tuesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday. $39, $42, $42 and another $42 gone. That sums to $173. But it was worth it. I changed my instructor to a Mr Simon, who was someone I don't like at first. You see, there was a 2 month gap since I learnt driving, beween the 4th and 5th lesson due to my exams and work. So on the 5th lesson, I basically drove like a n00b on the road. Rather embarassing. And I almost hit a vehicle. The engine stalled multiple times. Haha. But eventually things turned out better after that for the next 3 lessons. It was the same instructor, and this time, I improved a lot and got no problems changing gears, starting off, turning, etc.

I learnt 3-point turn, U-turn, and reverse vertical parking. Oh, and my TP test date is out. Should be on the 4th April 2010. Sian, have to renew my PDL coz mine expires on 31st March 2010 -_-. Whatever, just want to get my license asap.

Other than that, went out on Friday again to accompany SC after the job interview and have brunch. It was probably the first time I see an SC as an OL and had a good talk over Mac.  Then went over to Tampines where SC had to meet the agent whilst I waited there again, listening to my mp3, just like the last time. So we went to Tampines Mall's Popular to source for the lil non-piggy piggy bank but cannot find it. SC wanted to head back to the schoo, but decided to 'accompany' me instead. So we got down to Marine Parade / Parkway Parade to look for the thing again, but the popular there don't have a new stock of it. Too bad. Had dessert at PP and walked over to Marine Parade CC, where we bade goodbye, while SC headed for the library there while I took 55 to CDC for driving lesson.

I guess that sums up the past few days.

As for today, I woke up after 3+ hours of sleep to meet my ASN guys and girls for a 10km run at MacRitchie Reservoir Park. Dragged my lazy body there to force my legs to work after slacking for sooo long. Only 6 turned up, Edwin, Poh Long, Sipeng, Meng Yean, Aizhi and myself -_-. Attendance was a mere 3%. But a small group is better, and we spent quality time training and pushing each other. Took 3 short breaks along the way and took photos. :) I am glad Icompleted the distance although my knees hurt a little after the run. Then we did some static PT led by our dear Poh Long before changing and going home. Took a short 30mins nap at home after showering. Lunch, and I headed for my driving lesson.

Back home now and just wishing for my daily therapy. ;) I don't take it for granted and I am just grateful for the time spent. Really, I treasure every moment, even if it was silence. :D 

As for last night, I just want to say, it was really quite a shock to hear it. I mean, I didn't expect something like that to happen, but now that you say it, I understand about the 'key' and the 'wall' thingy a lot better. Lets move on from there. I am not perfect either, so I have nothing to worry or think twice about. :)

Oh by the way, I sent SC an SMS which I hope you undertand I meant every word I said. Hope it didn't makes things too.... You know.

Thoughts

Had a talk again.

This time, I must say I am rather 'overwhelmed' by what was discussed, but I appreciate the honesty. Right now, many things are running through my head, but I got no time to think of it...

I will carry on later I guess... I still have to wake up early.

I will just.... sleep. But I can't.

Unpredictable

There are always things you can never be certain in life. Weather, future, and even human emotions.

Sometimes, one may not mean what he say, but when words are said, the damage is done. You cannot take back the words, but you can always make amendments.

I am just a simple bin. I let anyone deserving to dump anything on me. I have done it for 3 years, and I survived. But the bin gets filled ultimately and needs to be cleared. The question is who will help?

I should be satisfied with my life. And I should learn to stop complaining. So what about being snapped at? I chose this path, and I should just face the consequences. Life is not a bed of roses and there are bound to be setbacks. Guess I must really mature.

Dinner!

I know I'll probably get 鸟-ed by someone again for typing this at this time. But I don't like to delay my entries.

Went back to workplacetoday for one last time to do some impt stuff and bid goodbye to my bosses. It will probably be a long time before I step into the same place again...

Then head off to have dinner at Marina Square! Went to Yuki Yaki for the first time, and its indeed better then Seoul Garden. Met Doreen and Joe Wei there too. What a small world. So anyway had a good time there eating and talking. I guess that's what we share in common. Sometimes, when the person, time and place is right, it doesn't matter what we do.

I didn't got 'grilled' exactly. Since AC behaved (no you are not a ***), I decided to let AC know what AC wanted. But anyway, AC is a splendid cook. Totally impressed... :) But what I enjoyed the most was all the sharing. I was really honoured indeed.

So before I get nagged again, I better end this entry. Don't worry, no photos will be uploaded here! ;) Time to sleep!